遺忘

和人家不同的是，我不像他們一樣幸福。

我不像他們一樣被愛。

我不像他們一樣被想念。

我不像他們一樣濄得恨開心。

我甚至覺得我的存在根本不重要。

既然如此，我還留在這里幹嘛。

WARNING. NOT FOR THE FAINT HEARTED.

i tell you. i just got a shock of my life ):

ytd gran bought pink dragon fruit and because no one wants to eat it (ITS FREAKING PINK, DUH. who would wanna?) i had to finish the whole damn thing myself. dragon fruit overdose.

and just now when i went to shit, i saw BLOODY RED POO.

i was yelling inside OMG BLOOD!!! i was about to cry ):

i duno what got into me but i was still calm enough to go investigate the poo though i was about to faint. hahah. but i was like fuck la get outta here then decide what to do.

so i wiped my ass and saw dots (ewww) hahahaha then it dawned on me that it's the dragon fruit -.-

sighs dragon fruit. 真是害人不淺啊。

happy 2010?

new year. but it wasn't a very happy start.

first of all, mahjong then gek stayover-ed at my place and pool at ehub the next day (tio trash ah lol i stink at pool). then very impromptu, leslie came and meet us. the initial plan was to go to the art museum while waiting for jun to end work but stupid les took such a long time to reach hahha. okay la not his fault.

anw les' bro drives like a madman :X

and received bad news from cyn ):

after starbucks with jun, we went back to leslie's to pick up the car, ruby and bel then jalan kayu for prata. sighs, we talked like a good 3 hours or so. then came the best part.

on the way home, what leslie said really made me feel very useless. i mean i'd always known that i'm not a very good friend. i'm aware of it, in fact gek and i were just talking about it during the morning. i'm guilty of it but i duno why i keep making the same mistakes.

i know blaming my forgetfulness isn't going to help but it really is the case. yea you can also say that i'm not making the effort. maybe that's true. but i really really tried. which is why ultimately, i believe that the memory's the culprit.

but the night went so badly that i'm like super emo now.

anw congrats to leslie la lol. that's probably the best thing that happened to tonberry the entire day.

sigh wanted to blog about my new year resolutions but yoga lin made me really emo ): tmr then.

and i think dad's really missing.

我没有说谎 我何必说谎 你知道的 我缺点之一就是很健忘

fionagoh is an asshole

hahah i've recovered woohoo :D

thanks tonberry for giving in to me when i cnt talk/walk and everyone who looked after me or wished me speedy recovery. thanks man (:

xmas was kinda fun. ahhaha thanks to gek's luck, cos she won first prize at tp alumni night's lucky draw. one night stay at the goodwood park ((:

gift exchange and drinking session. then HTHT (LOL) till morning. really love tonberry. cnt imagine life without them.

meeting emily dear tmr (: yay i cnt freaking wait ahahaha. we both have so lil money that if we were to combine our fortunes, we can count with 2 hands.

kbox with carmen and cyn on tue. then woonyah for dinner (: yayyyyy

okay now that ive recovered, this is the list of people i have to meet:

anna + winnie

jenny

sharlene

jibin / og16

7 princess + lloyd

406

jeremy

su

adeline

maddy / mon / grace

suds

adryll

christa / keith / janet MSIA ROAD TRIP (:

serena goh guizhen

weishan

very very sick

i almost got hospitalised ):

doctor said if i had gone to see her like a lil later, my tonsilitis would have been too serious for the usual antibiotics ):

sigh im soooo hungry. my last meal was monday lunch ): dint eat the whole of tue cos i had a 40.6 deg fever ): personal record. sigh. whenever i put something into my mouth i'd throw up.

and just now i tried to have a bowl of campbell soup but halfway through i alr felt like puking. its been like 5 hrs alr and i still feel like vomitting la ): sheesh but im so so hungry ):

tonsilitis go away soon pls. im starved.

bloody thermodynamics.

oh boyfriend. why do you have to treat me like that? i spent every single waking moment with you for the past 2 weeks (okay maybe except when im youtubing/blogging/facebooking/eating/showering/shitting.. you geddit, personal time). even more than i did for the entire 5 months i've been with you.

ive been so faithful to you, neglecting my other boyfriend and only loving (trying to) you. but why did you have to ditch me at the point when i needed you the most? damn you.

you 'd disappointed me so much. you gave me hopes so high and then WHAM! BAM! you're down and out. for the whole 3 hours, i dint know what to do at all. i was like crap, should i just walk out or sit here and try to work things out and salvage our relationship.

okay fine i admit i hadnt been a very great girlfriend and cheated on you most of the time. but shit you. you had to break up with me at the critical moment.



im sorry i failed you mr pec201 ): please give me a D, pretty please? well im actually just fine with a credit :X

jinxed.

anw i realised what a jinxed life i have.

everytime i reject/dump a guy, they find someone better X10000

fuck, its like that movie good luck chuck, where the guy is jinxed, and every woman who had sex with him will find true love. forgot the movie title anw.

hahah yea that im just like that guy. minus the sex part. J, T, J, F and Y. statistically proven. fml.


and i'll never look at yoga lin the same way ever again ):