i wanna see my eye candy ((:

heh im finally blogging. opps sorry emily and anna! but shucks im not supposed to be blogging now so please petend you never saw this post :X

anw thoughout the period when i couldnt blog, things were terrible, horrible, unbearable and whatever-ble.

1. all of a sudden i was yr2 BUT still a freshie with how many subjects to handle.
2. then all of a sudden, i was made secretary of elf and all of a sudden i had so much responsibilities to handle.
3. and in a blink of an eye, it was mid-sems. with projects going on and elf to handle. gah i almost died.
4. and simultaneously, tonberry had so much trouble going on.

sighs, its a wonder i survived.

anyway, elaboration time.

oltc
super fun! i love my fellow OLs and log and whoever. it was seriously better than tpsu otc. like waaaaayy better. and thanks to ruby, lulu, junjie and my angel weng tat, i survived the 2 torturous night walks.

fow/foc
i did something really stupid and only ____ knew about it. but thank god he doesnt know the whole story so even if he DID say it out, no one knows whats was going on anw.

anw 6 days gone like that. when we finally met up with tonberry, MY DARLING MICHELLE GOT ATTACHED WITH THE DELICIOUS PEANUT! haha what a cute couple (:

asc orientation
heh heh i love my freshies (: although they dont really love me back equally much. but yea, they were fun! and im taking csas1 with them. same class! woots. and ppl like tionghan yaoli guoxiang kk wendy and many others were nice cos they always lend me their notes and tutorial to copy. and wengtat helps me do tutorials! ahah opps i hope dr lim doesnt see this :X

so im taking hap biochem csas1 oc2 plm puo now. wow thats tough.

elf
RAH im kinda sick of the management. and i dont wanna repeat this over and over again. ive cried over this a few times and no doubt ive felt much better but they had to keep doing this! sheesh.

mid-sems
wah oc2 is really gone shit. pia-ing hap was a mistake but i guess if i dint, i would have regretted as well ): plm was kns. who on earth in the right mind would set a business subject to a science format?!?! RAH. and not to mention puo. shdnt have made that puzzle thing for tonberry, but then again, seeing their touched faces was worth it. but thanks to wengtat, ruby, mich and les for tuitioning me for mid-sems.

ish's birthday celebration
went to ruby's house the night before to buy food and stuff. but we were too slow in preparing the food for the next morning so we all ended up celebrating at ruby's house instead. sorry ish!

og birthday
16 june! yayness. og 16 is finally 2 yrs old ((: so the whole family came except sheryl, minx and daniel jiejie who is in camp T.T and sorry doggie son neighbour and bff for being so late :X anw we went to that jap restaurant beside billy bombers at marina for dinner. then doggie and i bought a slice of cake for us all. hahaha but no lighter! so macho neighbour went to "borrow" from a waiter.

then we went to sit down and talk after dinner. haha its like orientation all over again ((: i miss them alot! and they're lucky that they're still so close among themselves. sighs. its destined.

oh! and i saw eric korkor's neoprint in that neoprint mach in the arcade! ahaha he's so dead (:


anw im thinking of changing server. kinda sick of blogger. and now that everyone's using the new internet explorer, scripts arent workable anymore. not that i mind though. just hope that people wont start complaining.

and i duno why everything changed so fast. in like, just a week!

i realised some ppl are so oblivious to their surroundings. like how we have never seen each other before even though we've been in the same lt for 6 mths, or in everyone else's case, 1 yr. haha it was surprising when we all felt the same way. and just like how oblivious you are to the situation now.

but im always wrong. im still not seeing any changes in yall.

i wanna go back sa! sobs. and i wanna see him ((:

i duno how yall can treat this as a joke. i really meant it, but yall arent taking it seriously. yea maybe its just me making a mountain out of the molehill. and since yall dont care. if yall are happy with the current situation then im fine with it as well.

its not important anymore, anyway.

` forgotten.

i wanna blog! T.T oh man i shall do it soon. after mid sems, that is.

tune in soon (:

- Wrong

Wrong - Kimberley Locke
You can say I'm weak, you can say I'm frail
But your presumptions won't prevail
I'm made of more than what you see
Tell me to twist, tell me to bend
But I won't break just to fit in
Just shut your mouth and listen up
I was so naive
To let you have control of me
But now that I believe in me, I know
Ooooh

You're wrong, and I'm strong
Unafraid I'm moving on
Cause I'm free to be me
Nobody tells me who to be
Cause you're wrong, and I'm strong
Unafraid I'm moving on
Cause I'm free, to be me
Nobody tells me who to be
Yeah

I'm on the outside looking in
No longer do I pretend,
To be something that i'm not
I don't run, and I don't hide behind a comfort in disguise
What you see is what you get
I was so naive
To let you have control of me
But now that I believe in me, I know
Ooooh

Cause you're wrong, and I'm strong
Unafraid I'm moving on
Cause I'm free to be me
Nobody tells me who to be
Cause you're wrong, and I'm strong
Unafraid I'm moving on
Cause I'm free, to be me
Nobody tells me who to be
Yeah

I wouldn't change a thing
Cause life is how you grow
You live, you learn, and then you know

Cause you're wrong, and I'm strong
Unafraid I'm moving on
Cause I'm free to be me
Nobody tells me who to be
Cause you're wrong, and I'm strong
Unafraid I'm moving on
Cause I'm free, to be me
Nobody tells me who to be
Cause you're wrong, and I'm strong
Unafraid I'm moving on
Cause I'm free to be me
Nobody tells me who to be
Cause you're wrong, and I'm strong
Unafraid I'm moving on
Cause I'm free to be me
Nobody tells me who to be
Yeah

emily dear, I CNT WAIT TO GO YOUR HOUSE ((: i miss you loads!

sharon, i'll wait for your cookies (: and thanks for your support! love ya (:

late.

i apologise for procastinating. bad habits die hard.

og outing (:
15th day of cny! met up with laopo hj, dotter jb, son yx, bro sam, doggie sh, bestie des and neighbour sel. so we went to moonfish for dinner first. er, it sort of sucks actually. nvm, we still had fun (: oh and i hate myself for being so tactless ): after that sel went home so the rest of us went to sam's hse to bridge! yayness i miss those times. sighs.

ikea
gek and i wanted to buy some stuff for farewell dinner so xl ruby les mich manda accompanied us. man, i love that place! anw ruby and i went to dump the stuff at les' house before going to pf to pool with wee.

and that was white valentines (:

farewell dinner
not bad. gek and i had a go at being emcees (: we were quite lousy la but paul and kaay helped us quite a bit. thanks, i think. but i'll miss the seniors ): i dowan ay07/08 to come. i dowan rubbish joe, funny jarrel, irritating keith, big nose yu an, caring vina, miracle healer ivan, lao da paul and potato kaay to leave. CRIES.

eco meeting
whee i love smu's building (: confusing but yea, its nice. i dint like it at woman's day though. had a mini workshop by minghui and zhihao. not bad, but i was quite restless. tired after elf meeting and plus, i was looking forward to finishing that meeting. rah, im so irresponsible. and there's a new hr member, yingxiu. welcome to the wonderful hr family (:

but nonetheless, thanks for waiting (: it was damn nice of you.

kumamoto
went to send xl they all off. argh so jealous i wanna go kumamoto too! my knct hotties (: and he bought us yu shous! THANKS (: and the DARK CHOC pocky! and oh, the bottle of air. i'll treasure it eh.

ag14 chalet
ate. partied. danced. talked. rotted. shared. drank. fagged. zzz. corne and charles are as bad as les. oh not as if im any better.

and im starting to miss them alr.

argh, the ghost stories. im sorry i was a spoiler but i wanted to say, i dint cry cos i was scared. i admit i was, but no, i dint cry because of that. it was cos of that phone call. thanks for calling, it was so assuring and i felt damn relieved. really, thanks.

kelvon chalet
went out with ruby les and mich for storm the yard. woohoo rocks la. and you call that a movie? a rocking mtv, more like. and ruby's damn zai at time crisis, les' pro at daytona, even better than ryan, and mich rocks at bishi bashi. sian. so ruby suggested to find my hidden talent, through air hockey. and i still lost. and ruby cracked his phone. ahhahah. conclusion is, i suck at everything.

went for chalet after that with ruby. gah, i cnt imagine the coincidence! its the same freaking bungalow as ag14's. like one day after the other. so i was there for like consecutive 4-5 days.

and i like sitting at the back of pickups (: woots.

alp for tpsu
oh man. it was totally pathetically screwed up. im such a lousy instructor.

went for lunch with hj gek xl paul les ruby des after that. then it was left with paul les and i. so we accompanied him to shop for his gf's prezzie. and paul helped les change his image. then paul was telling me that its damn easy for me to shop for clothes. just filter out the colours cos i only buy black white grey -.-

trng
such valuable lessons. pity gek's in laos. paul taught us threading and lobster clawing and terence taught us programming and debriefing.

had a talk with terence as well. kinda agree with him about running for main, with my sucky results and all. plus being in AS's kinda not helping too. having lousy gpa wont get you student awards. terence supports me for secretary and not forgetting that that post's a killer. cries.

oltc
I LOVE THE PPL MAN! interceptors rocks la (: really love it more than tpsu otc. although the food sucks and programme screwed up and games boring to death, the fun i had was much more than otc.

cnt wait for outings!

business sl alp
i really suck at briefing la. and you werent helping at all. fancy pretending to apologise when you needed my help in wearing the harness. hah! your life was in my hands eh.

and scandalous les jumped with a girl. hahaha literally you jump i jump!

ohoh! serena's joining elf next year (: YESS AH! so i'll have duke, serena, mich and ruby under me (:

and i had that vision again. freaky.

tonberry chalet
fun fun fun (: drank again and this time i wasnt drunk! I REPEAT, I DID NOT GET DRUNK. hahah why wont yall believe me?

so now im finally free to blog. rah i hate this hols. and ive still yet to:
` go out with winnie and qin.
` crash sa to pass huijuan that machine.
` watch des' vball match.
` remind him to inform me on the match.
` work. i need money!
` clean up the darn room.
` design elf shirt.
` 06s05 outing!
` change blogskin.
` watch tvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtv (:

black white grey.

- Just A Kid

Just A Kid by Simple Plan
I woke up it was 7
I waited til 11
Just to figure out that no one would call
I think I've got alot of friends
But I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone
When you're spending every day on your own
And here it goes

I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cuz
I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me

And maybe when the night is dead
I'll crawl into my bed staring at these 4 walls again
I'll try to think about the last time
I had a good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go
& they're gonna leave me here on my own
And here it goes

I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cuz
I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me

What the fuck is wrong with me
Don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored & I can't fall asleep
And every night is the worst night ever

I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid

I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cuz
I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world

I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cuz
I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
Nobody cares cuz
I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me tonight

I'm all alone tonight
Nobody cares tonight
Cuz I'm just a kid tonight

mug + exam + amazing race 4 + chalet ((:

wahahaha its been eons, im finally free to blog!

study + exam week had been hell. cos i hadnt studied that much since olvls. sighs, htm dint require much studying and now bms is hell lot of mugging.

so it was almost everyday of mugging with tonberry. the other day at airport, i saw dok. sighs miss her so much i almost cried ):

i think its nice having ppl from diff schools to study tgt. haha we used to only think otherwise.

weewee les and i kept talking about econs. weewee and xl taught gek emath, les taught weewee macro and i taught him micro. ruby taught me everything and weewee les and i exchanged stats knowledge. i taught them mirco too. xl and weewee taught me integration and mich taught me bmic. viv taught les pompom and, here's the best part:

LESLIE TAUGHT EVERYONE F&B! hahah voldka is made from cheese!

and for that 2 weeks, i dint have proper sleep. and i thought everything would be over after exams, but i forgot there was still amazing race 4.

day 1
met huimin and sharon in the morn before reporting. damn sad la, the 3 of us were seperated. but luckily i had marianne with me for everyday. thank goodness! alhough ive only known her like for such a short while, she's so nice!

went to ecp for the station but it was cancelled in the end anw. so i went for iguides chalet. alvina dint want to go for the first day so i went alone. grrr.

uber ulu la that freaking pa place. thank goodness mich ruby alan peanut rain came out at the right time and fetched me to the chalet. hengness.

played cards awhile and ruby they all cooked maggie for us (: i like pa's culture. the bunks and toilets and kitchen. so hostel-like. ((: the way everyone gathered in the same bunk to talk and play cards jjust to accompany me while i was bathing. ahah sorry i was so scared la!

after that they decided to go out celebrate stan's birthday. so i went back amazing race's campsite, gek mich and gabriel went home. gab and i shared cab to pasir ris then go that les' house take jacket.

i seriously dont like pasir ris. freaking big and confusing. like china, man! so many ppl riding bicycles ard. haha.

anw shar and min went out to the bus stop to fetch me (: so nice of them! and, ar's campsite is at pa too! just the pasir ris version of iguides' punggol one.

stayed up abit to talk. i like talking with them (: just like that time grad dinner preparation. and that irritating cat kept coming to smell my food ): then lex and yj kept making the cat sounds ):

so min and i shared a bed while shar slept on the one on top of ours. i think we are zai cos we can dont move for so many hours! if not for that irritating alarm which woke me up everytime i rang. i duno why, im not a light sleeper!

day 2
min and shar were in the same grp. too bad for me. but i still had marianne! hahah. our grp went to esplanade with william. wahseh the quiz freaking hard la! princes and princess (:

i support that argentina guy! hahah gary and jinbao's grp. woots argentina rocks la (:

anw those grps were such poor things. but luckily they had nice mobile officers.

so after that i left the grp and went to sengkang to meet alvina and bobby before going to the chalet.

celebrated stan's birthday and the guys tau poked him until he had asthma attack ): then had bbq and all. i love mich! ((: and there was this irritating fly which kissed me after i drank that uber sweet drink. cries.

then we went to the jetty to talk and i duno why weewee had to go talk about dropping econs which made me cry like shit ): so they accompanied me back to get tissue and after that we went to talk again. sighs econs is demoralising.

day 3
duno who woke me up at 5.30 when alvina and i left the chalet at 9 in the end anw. sheesh could have slept longer. i dont like 0530.

les and i walked weewee out to the bus stop. see we're nice!

so alvina and i went to botanic gardens to wait for the grp. hahah i think im freaking unromantic. we went to the swan lake and i was complaining why is it called a swan lake when there's only 1 swan? okay fine if there were more they would have called it the swans lake instead.

botanic gardens is freaking big! and i was so tired i slept all the way while waiting for the grps to arrive. thank goodness for marianne, once again! and oh! i missed the argentina grp ):

then we went back to aloha cos of change in campsite. then the 2 sharons, min and i slept in the living room after rushing t3 memorandum cos shar was dead tired and she just fell asleep outside after messing up the ckt books meant for next day's station.

hadnt have a nice talk with angeline for quite long alr, so chatted with her till 3 plus and slept after that.

day 4
everyone woke up in a rush and yj drove us to chomp chomp! yayness, but too bad chomp chomp wont be open until at night. so we went opp to have prata first. omg 24 bucks. thanks for the treat!

then the poor grps had to rearrange the ckt books in order again. poor thing ): and poor us too! we had to check page by page ):

after that went white sands for lunch and somehow yj fetched us back cos he was on the way i think. so we went to pasir ris park and i went over to woonyah's chalet to dump my stuff first.
so the pit stop was at the maze. wah freaking diff. but i left early. lex have really nice songs (: i wanna kope from him!! and he's nice cos he taught me how to use the street directory. ((:

went for woman's day exhibition at smu with kahang and yingchee. wahlao thanks eh terence. freaking boring lor. and ying was enjoying it! argh hahahah.

then rushed back to aloha for the prize presentation and all. YAY argentina guy won! ((: ahh i wanna get his number ):

oh fcuk i hate myself for being such a coward ):

somehow i ended up going back to woonyah's alone. thank goodness for the 2 sharons and min for walking me out (: love yall! and nice les walked from pasir ris park to downtown to fetch me. thanks alot!

okay i really hate myself for being such a coward, for crying over such minor things. things like the dark, and that.

anw i was freaking tired but still tried to finish the proposal. woonyah bbqed food for me (: thanks!

then xl gek ruby baoming woonyah went up to play cards + drink while alan les bryan and i stay downstairs to mahjong. fine, they played while i watched.

then after i went to sleep, woonyah dragged les up to play after baoming got drunk. WTH and les got drunk too. RAH!

so i woke up and quickly changed and all and rushed to aloha again to get my stuff, but sighs. i couldnt find it. aww.

and weewee came straight after we asked him to (: cos of that pig la. then we all went to school for meeting/lunch/whatever.

then after meeting met les ruby for dinner and we saw mich and manda! ahhaa so qiao! i wanna go shop shop shop (: then we went pool fusion. wah shiok! the place rocks la.

went mind's ytd and saw edmund there! ai zai his teacher damn hip one leh. and kyle had to spoil my day by cancelling t3 and sisters island ): sighs

went out with mich manda and serene today! yay but dint get any clothes ): i badly need for farewell dinner and the weddings! oh no.

and i know what you're implying. thanks ah i got it.

you're still my no 2 (:

zzz

i duno why im so affected by this. but anw.

go sleep.