` forgotten.

i wanna blog! T.T oh man i shall do it soon. after mid sems, that is.

tune in soon (:

- Wrong

Wrong - Kimberley Locke
You can say I'm weak, you can say I'm frail
But your presumptions won't prevail
I'm made of more than what you see
Tell me to twist, tell me to bend
But I won't break just to fit in
Just shut your mouth and listen up
I was so naive
To let you have control of me
But now that I believe in me, I know
Ooooh

You're wrong, and I'm strong
Unafraid I'm moving on
Cause I'm free to be me
Nobody tells me who to be
Cause you're wrong, and I'm strong
Unafraid I'm moving on
Cause I'm free, to be me
Nobody tells me who to be
Yeah

I'm on the outside looking in
No longer do I pretend,
To be something that i'm not
I don't run, and I don't hide behind a comfort in disguise
What you see is what you get
I was so naive
To let you have control of me
But now that I believe in me, I know
Ooooh

Cause you're wrong, and I'm strong
Unafraid I'm moving on
Cause I'm free to be me
Nobody tells me who to be
Cause you're wrong, and I'm strong
Unafraid I'm moving on
Cause I'm free, to be me
Nobody tells me who to be
Yeah

I wouldn't change a thing
Cause life is how you grow
You live, you learn, and then you know

Cause you're wrong, and I'm strong
Unafraid I'm moving on
Cause I'm free to be me
Nobody tells me who to be
Cause you're wrong, and I'm strong
Unafraid I'm moving on
Cause I'm free, to be me
Nobody tells me who to be
Cause you're wrong, and I'm strong
Unafraid I'm moving on
Cause I'm free to be me
Nobody tells me who to be
Cause you're wrong, and I'm strong
Unafraid I'm moving on
Cause I'm free to be me
Nobody tells me who to be
Yeah

emily dear, I CNT WAIT TO GO YOUR HOUSE ((: i miss you loads!

sharon, i'll wait for your cookies (: and thanks for your support! love ya (:

late.

i apologise for procastinating. bad habits die hard.

og outing (:
15th day of cny! met up with laopo hj, dotter jb, son yx, bro sam, doggie sh, bestie des and neighbour sel. so we went to moonfish for dinner first. er, it sort of sucks actually. nvm, we still had fun (: oh and i hate myself for being so tactless ): after that sel went home so the rest of us went to sam's hse to bridge! yayness i miss those times. sighs.

ikea
gek and i wanted to buy some stuff for farewell dinner so xl ruby les mich manda accompanied us. man, i love that place! anw ruby and i went to dump the stuff at les' house before going to pf to pool with wee.

and that was white valentines (:

farewell dinner
not bad. gek and i had a go at being emcees (: we were quite lousy la but paul and kaay helped us quite a bit. thanks, i think. but i'll miss the seniors ): i dowan ay07/08 to come. i dowan rubbish joe, funny jarrel, irritating keith, big nose yu an, caring vina, miracle healer ivan, lao da paul and potato kaay to leave. CRIES.

eco meeting
whee i love smu's building (: confusing but yea, its nice. i dint like it at woman's day though. had a mini workshop by minghui and zhihao. not bad, but i was quite restless. tired after elf meeting and plus, i was looking forward to finishing that meeting. rah, im so irresponsible. and there's a new hr member, yingxiu. welcome to the wonderful hr family (:

but nonetheless, thanks for waiting (: it was damn nice of you.

kumamoto
went to send xl they all off. argh so jealous i wanna go kumamoto too! my knct hotties (: and he bought us yu shous! THANKS (: and the DARK CHOC pocky! and oh, the bottle of air. i'll treasure it eh.

ag14 chalet
ate. partied. danced. talked. rotted. shared. drank. fagged. zzz. corne and charles are as bad as les. oh not as if im any better.

and im starting to miss them alr.

argh, the ghost stories. im sorry i was a spoiler but i wanted to say, i dint cry cos i was scared. i admit i was, but no, i dint cry because of that. it was cos of that phone call. thanks for calling, it was so assuring and i felt damn relieved. really, thanks.

kelvon chalet
went out with ruby les and mich for storm the yard. woohoo rocks la. and you call that a movie? a rocking mtv, more like. and ruby's damn zai at time crisis, les' pro at daytona, even better than ryan, and mich rocks at bishi bashi. sian. so ruby suggested to find my hidden talent, through air hockey. and i still lost. and ruby cracked his phone. ahhahah. conclusion is, i suck at everything.

went for chalet after that with ruby. gah, i cnt imagine the coincidence! its the same freaking bungalow as ag14's. like one day after the other. so i was there for like consecutive 4-5 days.

and i like sitting at the back of pickups (: woots.

alp for tpsu
oh man. it was totally pathetically screwed up. im such a lousy instructor.

went for lunch with hj gek xl paul les ruby des after that. then it was left with paul les and i. so we accompanied him to shop for his gf's prezzie. and paul helped les change his image. then paul was telling me that its damn easy for me to shop for clothes. just filter out the colours cos i only buy black white grey -.-

trng
such valuable lessons. pity gek's in laos. paul taught us threading and lobster clawing and terence taught us programming and debriefing.

had a talk with terence as well. kinda agree with him about running for main, with my sucky results and all. plus being in AS's kinda not helping too. having lousy gpa wont get you student awards. terence supports me for secretary and not forgetting that that post's a killer. cries.

oltc
I LOVE THE PPL MAN! interceptors rocks la (: really love it more than tpsu otc. although the food sucks and programme screwed up and games boring to death, the fun i had was much more than otc.

cnt wait for outings!

business sl alp
i really suck at briefing la. and you werent helping at all. fancy pretending to apologise when you needed my help in wearing the harness. hah! your life was in my hands eh.

and scandalous les jumped with a girl. hahaha literally you jump i jump!

ohoh! serena's joining elf next year (: YESS AH! so i'll have duke, serena, mich and ruby under me (:

and i had that vision again. freaky.

tonberry chalet
fun fun fun (: drank again and this time i wasnt drunk! I REPEAT, I DID NOT GET DRUNK. hahah why wont yall believe me?

so now im finally free to blog. rah i hate this hols. and ive still yet to:
` go out with winnie and qin.
` crash sa to pass huijuan that machine.
` watch des' vball match.
` remind him to inform me on the match.
` work. i need money!
` clean up the darn room.
` design elf shirt.
` 06s05 outing!
` change blogskin.
` watch tvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtv (:

black white grey.

- Just A Kid

Just A Kid by Simple Plan
I woke up it was 7
I waited til 11
Just to figure out that no one would call
I think I've got alot of friends
But I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone
When you're spending every day on your own
And here it goes

I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cuz
I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me

And maybe when the night is dead
I'll crawl into my bed staring at these 4 walls again
I'll try to think about the last time
I had a good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go
& they're gonna leave me here on my own
And here it goes

I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cuz
I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me

What the fuck is wrong with me
Don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored & I can't fall asleep
And every night is the worst night ever

I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid

I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cuz
I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world

I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cuz
I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
Nobody cares cuz
I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me tonight

I'm all alone tonight
Nobody cares tonight
Cuz I'm just a kid tonight

mug + exam + amazing race 4 + chalet ((:

wahahaha its been eons, im finally free to blog!

study + exam week had been hell. cos i hadnt studied that much since olvls. sighs, htm dint require much studying and now bms is hell lot of mugging.

so it was almost everyday of mugging with tonberry. the other day at airport, i saw dok. sighs miss her so much i almost cried ):

i think its nice having ppl from diff schools to study tgt. haha we used to only think otherwise.

weewee les and i kept talking about econs. weewee and xl taught gek emath, les taught weewee macro and i taught him micro. ruby taught me everything and weewee les and i exchanged stats knowledge. i taught them mirco too. xl and weewee taught me integration and mich taught me bmic. viv taught les pompom and, here's the best part:

LESLIE TAUGHT EVERYONE F&B! hahah voldka is made from cheese!

and for that 2 weeks, i dint have proper sleep. and i thought everything would be over after exams, but i forgot there was still amazing race 4.

day 1
met huimin and sharon in the morn before reporting. damn sad la, the 3 of us were seperated. but luckily i had marianne with me for everyday. thank goodness! alhough ive only known her like for such a short while, she's so nice!

went to ecp for the station but it was cancelled in the end anw. so i went for iguides chalet. alvina dint want to go for the first day so i went alone. grrr.

uber ulu la that freaking pa place. thank goodness mich ruby alan peanut rain came out at the right time and fetched me to the chalet. hengness.

played cards awhile and ruby they all cooked maggie for us (: i like pa's culture. the bunks and toilets and kitchen. so hostel-like. ((: the way everyone gathered in the same bunk to talk and play cards jjust to accompany me while i was bathing. ahah sorry i was so scared la!

after that they decided to go out celebrate stan's birthday. so i went back amazing race's campsite, gek mich and gabriel went home. gab and i shared cab to pasir ris then go that les' house take jacket.

i seriously dont like pasir ris. freaking big and confusing. like china, man! so many ppl riding bicycles ard. haha.

anw shar and min went out to the bus stop to fetch me (: so nice of them! and, ar's campsite is at pa too! just the pasir ris version of iguides' punggol one.

stayed up abit to talk. i like talking with them (: just like that time grad dinner preparation. and that irritating cat kept coming to smell my food ): then lex and yj kept making the cat sounds ):

so min and i shared a bed while shar slept on the one on top of ours. i think we are zai cos we can dont move for so many hours! if not for that irritating alarm which woke me up everytime i rang. i duno why, im not a light sleeper!

day 2
min and shar were in the same grp. too bad for me. but i still had marianne! hahah. our grp went to esplanade with william. wahseh the quiz freaking hard la! princes and princess (:

i support that argentina guy! hahah gary and jinbao's grp. woots argentina rocks la (:

anw those grps were such poor things. but luckily they had nice mobile officers.

so after that i left the grp and went to sengkang to meet alvina and bobby before going to the chalet.

celebrated stan's birthday and the guys tau poked him until he had asthma attack ): then had bbq and all. i love mich! ((: and there was this irritating fly which kissed me after i drank that uber sweet drink. cries.

then we went to the jetty to talk and i duno why weewee had to go talk about dropping econs which made me cry like shit ): so they accompanied me back to get tissue and after that we went to talk again. sighs econs is demoralising.

day 3
duno who woke me up at 5.30 when alvina and i left the chalet at 9 in the end anw. sheesh could have slept longer. i dont like 0530.

les and i walked weewee out to the bus stop. see we're nice!

so alvina and i went to botanic gardens to wait for the grp. hahah i think im freaking unromantic. we went to the swan lake and i was complaining why is it called a swan lake when there's only 1 swan? okay fine if there were more they would have called it the swans lake instead.

botanic gardens is freaking big! and i was so tired i slept all the way while waiting for the grps to arrive. thank goodness for marianne, once again! and oh! i missed the argentina grp ):

then we went back to aloha cos of change in campsite. then the 2 sharons, min and i slept in the living room after rushing t3 memorandum cos shar was dead tired and she just fell asleep outside after messing up the ckt books meant for next day's station.

hadnt have a nice talk with angeline for quite long alr, so chatted with her till 3 plus and slept after that.

day 4
everyone woke up in a rush and yj drove us to chomp chomp! yayness, but too bad chomp chomp wont be open until at night. so we went opp to have prata first. omg 24 bucks. thanks for the treat!

then the poor grps had to rearrange the ckt books in order again. poor thing ): and poor us too! we had to check page by page ):

after that went white sands for lunch and somehow yj fetched us back cos he was on the way i think. so we went to pasir ris park and i went over to woonyah's chalet to dump my stuff first.
so the pit stop was at the maze. wah freaking diff. but i left early. lex have really nice songs (: i wanna kope from him!! and he's nice cos he taught me how to use the street directory. ((:

went for woman's day exhibition at smu with kahang and yingchee. wahlao thanks eh terence. freaking boring lor. and ying was enjoying it! argh hahahah.

then rushed back to aloha for the prize presentation and all. YAY argentina guy won! ((: ahh i wanna get his number ):

oh fcuk i hate myself for being such a coward ):

somehow i ended up going back to woonyah's alone. thank goodness for the 2 sharons and min for walking me out (: love yall! and nice les walked from pasir ris park to downtown to fetch me. thanks alot!

okay i really hate myself for being such a coward, for crying over such minor things. things like the dark, and that.

anw i was freaking tired but still tried to finish the proposal. woonyah bbqed food for me (: thanks!

then xl gek ruby baoming woonyah went up to play cards + drink while alan les bryan and i stay downstairs to mahjong. fine, they played while i watched.

then after i went to sleep, woonyah dragged les up to play after baoming got drunk. WTH and les got drunk too. RAH!

so i woke up and quickly changed and all and rushed to aloha again to get my stuff, but sighs. i couldnt find it. aww.

and weewee came straight after we asked him to (: cos of that pig la. then we all went to school for meeting/lunch/whatever.

then after meeting met les ruby for dinner and we saw mich and manda! ahhaa so qiao! i wanna go shop shop shop (: then we went pool fusion. wah shiok! the place rocks la.

went mind's ytd and saw edmund there! ai zai his teacher damn hip one leh. and kyle had to spoil my day by cancelling t3 and sisters island ): sighs

went out with mich manda and serene today! yay but dint get any clothes ): i badly need for farewell dinner and the weddings! oh no.

and i know what you're implying. thanks ah i got it.

you're still my no 2 (:

zzz

i duno why im so affected by this. but anw.

go sleep.

tj + valentines

oh man. i came early in the morning for cellb quiz and consultation and now i have god-knows-how-long till oc1.

oh, and! mr cheung's so nice! he's sick today but he still taught me. duno why other ppl dont like him ): he's so gonna get teachers day present from me. and mr tan too. mr loh.. i consider (: and ms ler, ask her go eat **** la.

so once again, im here at my favourite place (: lib lvl 7! where all the wonderful books are (: how i long to own them, to use them as pillows and bed.

nah, im not so cruel. books have lives too! okay, ngan leng? DO NOT LET ME CATCH YOU FOLDING DOG EARS!

and im supposed to study oc but im blogging! argh dont blame the girl, i haven been blogging for.. 2 weeks? anw, time for catching up!

the past week was bad ): sharon and justina indirectly caused my sore throat cum cough cum flu cum erm, headache. hahah it was me who couldnt stop eating la. nvm, my bad.

so for the first time, i went to the docs alone ): the last time i went to the docs was last yr i think. with i-forgot-who-but-i-think-is-hj.

then came sat. went to tj with eco for the club-launch-preparation. wah ask me go there do saikang ): but at least i gained something! minghui taught me abit of cellb and oc. but due to my stm, i forgot everything he taught. hes a good teacher though. okay i shall add him on msn soon and bombard him with ques!

then it was sun. official launch of eco creative club, join project by eco and tj. anw i was in charge of the colouring contest booth and i made friends with the lil girl beside our booth. it was a good thing actually, shall elaborate later. but i was impartial okay! i dint let her win cos i like her, she was quite good!

anw, sth unfortunate happened. the wind was freaking big then and i duno why they had to go put the freaking fish tank on a chair which was infront of the bloody banner.

anw the wind was so strong it blew the banner up, which hit the chair, which overturned the fish tank. so i saw and was going to save the fish tank (20 over guppies okay) but to no avail ):

instead i the fish tank hit my leg and the freaking banner flew all the way up and hit my nose. and it bled like shit. (or waterfall as wilson described it. i think tap, more like.)

lucky for me, the lil girl (whose booth was beside ours) has a dad who's a private nurse! haha i know cos he gave me his namecard earlier on. see, im so businessy! nah, he gave me his cos i he asked what am i studying now, and i said bms. so it was like oh we're in the same line! kinda thing. but i had none to give him though. nvm im digressing.

the point is, he saved my life. and my nose. it was damn zai la, as minghui had described it to me.

then one of the staff of the organiser drove minghui i and one tj first aider to cgh a&e. wahlao like make a mountain out of a molehill. but cos it was bleeding non stop and the tissues were all soaked.

gross. luckily i wasnt very conscious.

ohoh! fast forward. the guy at the xray thingy was so cute! hahah opps :X and he thought minghui was my brother and wilson my uncle! hahaha old man!

and i was so sad after the xray! not because i dont get to see him anw but cos i couldnt see my nose on the xray film! it was freaking flat la ): cos my cheekbones were too protruding .

so i missed the last cya. CRIES!

oh! back to the fish tank! at least i saved one (: so i named it sunday. but i duno what happened to him in the end ):

and i duno how cheryl knew about my nose. i reckon that zhihao told her. see! i knew there was something between them long ago! hahaha! oh and minghui lent me his windstruck ost! hahah yayness. at least it wasnt a trip wasted (:

which reminds me. i think i left janelle's cups in the cab after eco AD&A the other time ): sorry! opps i hope she dont see this :P

fast forward. valentines! thanks everyone for the presents and whatever. and for the first time in ages, i felt loved. by the ag14 girls. not the prezzies, but their actions. and those hugs were.. different. its a pity im not gonna be with them anw next sem, but i'll definately meet up with them again (:

come to think of it, before valentines i still felt that i wasnt so accepted by them. cos of one things and another. but now, yea i feel better (:

and thank YOU for the card. for a period of time, i was feeling that we're dirfting apart. and now, i rmbred why we could become so close in the first place.

because you can read my mind (:

i dint say that concern out loud, but yea ive hinted you abit abt it. and i think its not very obvious. or maybe she told you abt it. but now, you said it out for me (:

and sorry we went with iguides instead. we did thought you'll go out with jsmxw ):

then tim came and talked to me abit. okay i admit i was at fault, but i dint think you'd be so sensitive. but still, i blame myself. tim asked me what was i thinking but i couldnt ans him. not cos i dont want. but i really dont know what to do.

and now, even if you dont blame me, i still do. blame myself, i mean. i dont wanna face you not cos i dont want to, but i cant.

omg i hate myself for causing all this.

on a happier note, we waited for leslie to end school and the fun started! took bus to potong pasir first. oh man, the memories come flooding back again ): anw we wasted so much time at the bus stop! and we still ended up taking mrt.

pepper lunch! haha i stupidly thought it was a lunch until ngan leng told me its the shop's name -.- okay fine im sua ku. but i still wanna go to island creamery!!

so while the guys were queueing up, we girls went shopping! and gek and i bought shoes! yay my cny shopping is almost complete (: left that awful hair and one more peice to go!

after dinner vivien gina (oh! i think she's chio!) zixin alan serene bryan had to go. so the rest of us went to mind cafe (:

duno why ngan leng rushed all the way there. they had long legs okay! so we girls were lagging behind ):

then we finally reached! pit pit pit my love (: but they dint want to play taboo. how sad. adversity was fun! but fluxx was freaking time consuming.

so we played for 2 hours. then leslie that cheekopek wanted to get no from one of the chiobu staff and rubayn supported him. sighs those 2. but i think that girl knew cos we all kept looking at her. so she avoided our table at all costs ):

too bad for leslie then!

i still prefer settlers anw (: eco AD&A was so much fun!!

i broke up with gek on the way back ): thanks to weekiat! grrr. hahha and thanks to ngan leng and leslie for setting the trend of breaking out on valentines.

oh! and i think michelle's chio too. haha most michelles are chio. and tiny.
1. michelle wong yan ming my p6 bestie cum leslie's schoolmate.
2. michelle lim jia yi my dear sec3&4 classmate and now coursemate whom i like to tickle everytime i see her.
3. michelle that bitch whom everyone hates back in evs
4. michelle ng i-forgot-what my dearest tiny from 1h02!! whom i love love love alot. cum weiliang's school mate.

see the world is so small!

the only exception of tiny michelles: michelle wong ** evs 206'04. hahah opps.

okay back to topic. i saw jarrel with his gf at simei mrt! hahah he kept looking my way cos he was afraid i'd spot him. but by doing that, he's digging his own grave! hahha so dumb! and freaking obvious la.

anw i hate tp's wireless ):

and i dont like the new blogger.

oh and its total defence day today!










whoa. that was looooonnnggg. anw shall stop here and go study oc! mug mug mug. or else i'll get scolding from catherine lim and dr vijaya again.

i will not slack. i will not slack. i will not slack.

i'll try ;)

parangmilato chuhayo