im screwed again.

chi os oral. VERY GOOD! and im pretty sure ive screwed up.

the night before, i was thinking, would they come up topics on s'pore idol? and then it came up today! wth why do i always think of things that ALWAYS happen in the end. like ytd's chem thing. ayy

im so careless. i left my ss book in the hall after i took my bag and left. shucks and i cnt do my ss notes now. but anw i have an excuse!

ri chang hua ti sucks. communication problems with elders. and i said elders as ANCESTORS! can you believe it? oh man whats wrong with me?

sth funny happened durig eng today! sekhar asked us to copy this whole chunk of words at the board. so we did. then cos he couldnt wait to continue the lesson, he started talking to himself. then at the end of his sentance, he asked do yall follow? and the whole class answered NO! cos we were still busy copying.

then there's this passage, the points are all jumbled up. so he told us these point are not in random order. -opens eyes wide- then shena and me were there laughing like hell.

talentime today sucks. arron aziz came to our school to judge the talentime. and there were no dances at all! cheat my feelings. and the singing totally cmi la. esp the rock bands. 1 is mad enough. but 3? and dont they know how lousy our school's sound system is? why must they torture our ears with the loud and no-music noise? i can say that NOBODY enjoyed them.

and that guy who sang you are not alone, his key totally off. and he started off with the wrong key so the whole song sounded weird. haha.

the guy who played tonghua on the piano is nice. but the singing damned horrible. and off beat too. lol

shit geog due tmr. and i still have 1 ques and 2 hr left.

after oral i waited 3 hours before going home. ay cos of st johns. stayed back to help them rehearse their passing out parade. and its nice! yay shena's a good choreographer. forming the letters C-H-A-R-L-I-E is innovative!

shena and daryl so lousy! kept forgetting the formations. haha so had to keep rehearsing. and i so peifu yq for his powerful voice!

something's wrong with ken's phone. either that or he's deaf. cos sc they all call him so many times he also nv ans phone. even when they used my phone to call him he also nv ans. ayy.

haha the st john mambers really made my day, cracking me up with their stupid mistakes and all. thanks :)

i guess, you're still mad at me. when it isnt my fault in the first place.

really want to wish you luck for your oral. but on second thought, if you're not apologising, im not gonna talk to you.

emptiness.

chi os oral tmr. shit and my confidence level is like waaay down there -points to the floor-

oh now i know another flirt. why do i see flirts everywhere i go?

im starting to hate you. maybe just a bit. you've really changed alot. esp in only 2 days.

sheesh. tonnes of homework not done. i still have:
chem hol hw (abit left)
geog hol hw (1 more ques to go)
geog deforestation ques
eng compre 2 + summary 1
ss notes (totally not done!)

all due tmr/fri. freak

oh chem today! titration again! failed the experiment as usual (no surprises there!) lol. and anna and siwei did sth stupid!

anna had some ammonia (alkali) on her hands so she tried to wash it with the mama lemon thing (alkali). and the more she wash, the more foam her hands produce! then we thought she got poisoned or sth, so we checked the soap (maybe it expired or what). then siwei tried the soap on his own hands. and the same thing happened. so we tried washing their hands with distilled water! (actually i wanted to ask them to wash with hydrochloric acid but then i was afraid they would say stupid idea or sth so dint)

haha then mr yeo saw what happened and suggested washing with acid -.- (i should have voiced out) so they did. and it worked :( ayy

now i know the power of DILUTED HCl. corroded everybody's retort stand until like what. and clement accidentally spilled some on the floor. and it BUBBLED! with that sizzling sound. eeeks

shena told me losta st john stuff. and she added you shd have joined. actually thats what everybody told me. but running for kilometres at 6am every morning in camp isnt what you'll be seeing me do. and i choose playing erhu over running anytime.

running is just so not me.

oh and did i tell you? my dad's friend daughter whom i hadnt seen for quite sometime asked me what cca im in. and i asked her to guess. guess what she said? ST JOHN! omg do i look like st john? but hui says so anw. so argh!

whalao now i now what i mean to you. 1 month passed and not even a hi, let alone sorry. how long must we go on like this?

there're better things in life than you. im not gonna be put down by you cos you're NOT WORTH IT. just who do you think you are? you're just a NOBODY. no big deal. therefore just SHUT UP.

invisible.

im so pissed at her. you know we usually say due to unforseen circumstances blah blah.. but why are these unforseen circumstances always seem to be to her advantage? omg! how unfair! that kinda flirt gets all the chances to flirt even more. where is justice?!

and YOU! how can you be so gullible that you dont even know she's taken advantage of you? but anw, bet you enjoyed that.

you great big liar. i hate you!

2nd day of school and im alr drfiting in my own world. actually, what happened ytd was not sth i put up. alright, shall explain.

as yall know alr, im a gemini. and so i have 2 extreme faces:
1. ytd's super talkative and happy face
2. the usual depressed face (and usually charles steps on my foot at these times)

bad luck charles.

back to the topic. back in sec 1/2 i only wear the first face to school. cos i had nth to be depressed abt. then came sec 3. at first was alright but that hui incident happened. so started to show my other face. all came back to normal in sec 4. after the first 3 months, the same thing happened to me and dok. so ive been wearing the 2nd face for the next 3 months.

ytd, i was really happy cos long time nv see everyone, plus the surprise. hence the 1st face was back. maybe anna nv see before or she forgot, thats why she thought i was putting up my mask. but no. look at today. i had fun crapping with yuanlin, michelle, hui, meiyan, winnie, xj and shena they all. and my happy face was back once more.

after we stopped, i remembered this current prob. so that explains the drifting off.

wooosh long story.

everytime i see mok, i get reminded of today's chi lesson. AYYY samuel and charles i hate you!

tell me, which normal person dont get nervous? and which nervous person dont stammer/talk fast? its just that i normally talk alr fast so when i get nervous i talk even faster. whats wrong with that? you think i like? you think i purposely screw up my eng oral? you think im planning to screw up my chi os oral too? get a life la.

-rolls eyes-

anw i need help! anybody knows where can i get the book HOW TO MAINTAIN TALKING SPEED WHEN NERVOUS for dummies?

i suspect someone's les. haha no la.

oh and congrats to anna and hui. both your wishes came true.

can see that anna really cares for hui. nv come also must jiao dai me to help hui massage her back if pain.

shit im addicted to preserved mango. thanks to my dad.

rushed back to school just now thanks to her. couldnt find ms chin so asked goon to put my report book on her table. wahlao of all teachers only he's available. ah well better than sun zhao liang. anw so i smsed sc to help me check if she received it before he goes home cos they're having drills right now. and i waited for 1 whole hour and still no reply.

LIM SHEARN CHONG CAN YOU REPLY MY DAMNED MSG?

argh forget it. let it get lost la. then i dont have to worry abt my results anymore.

freak. why is the stupid 406 so damned competitive. whenever someone ans a ques, the whole class will turn and see who answered it.

im sick of everything. im really starting to hate my class more and more. maybe 406 just sucks. first the pple not cooperating. next the competiveness. then the class not being united. and that no one even knows im drifting in my own world. i even doubt that anyone would notice if i dint go to school for 1 week.

shit. i got the potassium manganate stain on my hand. luckily i dint get it on my shirt like siwei and charles did. and titration just sucks big time.

when will all this end?

look, you stupid clock. either you stop time now or you fast forward everything until the os are over. ticking at a rate of 1 tick per sec is getting you nowhere. and not to mention a waste of time too.

i dont wanna feel this way too but i just cannot control it. urgh. i hate this. this has got to be the worst year of my life. what sweet sixteen. rubbish.

when nothing mattered

anna was saying im weird today. weird meh? maybe cos i havent seen everyone for like 1 month ba. ayy

the previous entry was.. happy? i duno. i havent blogged like that for a long time. whee. i felt.. lighter. dont really know how to describe how i feel. haha

407 has a new chem teacher. mr yeo i think. hoho good luck to yall. be prepared to see how biased he can get.

i cut my nails! and i feel weird typing without nails. haha

eek the new timetable sucks. argh. and 407 has a new sitting arrangement. not fair!! and its erm unique in a sense that instead of single files, they had it diagonally facing the board. i like! and i remember 6/4 used to have this sitting arrangement too :( envy envy.

im not looking forward to pe. not with the type of pple i have in my class. why cant we be like 407? its like when we were in 205, we envied 206 and now we are in 406 we ennvy 407 so much. talk about being best friends classes.

ive gotta update as much as i can now cos i wont be able to update as much when the teachers start stressing us up :X which is like next week when ec starts.

i wanna go phin's! ayy

i really dont know how to decribe how im feeling right now. i feel useless. i feel so.. distant. ive been drifting away from the rss pple. like matthew wenxin weichen yinghui xiuru anghee huiping yeetien pearl jialin all interlink their blogs but me? and matthew joyce jialin yize xiuxian priscilla weixuan qiangsen christine yaopeng all still in touch cos they're in the same school. not to mention yeetien anghee kelvin and the rest. its been years since i last chatted with any rss pple online. ayy. 4yrs and its like that alr. what abt in future? dont even have to say hi when we meet?

i dint give up on myself. YOU gave up on me. damn. im wasting my life away waiting for things that will never happen. therefore since i know it, i shouldnt waste it anymore right? right.

hate this. hate everything.

and a moment ago i was blogging about happy stuffs.

all your fault.
i cant seem to get you out of my mind.

school reopen!

lala can you believe it? its the last first day of school we'll be having! (hopefully) cos sept not really counted as hols and next yr would be first day of CAMPUS for me! :D

went to school to meet shena they all at the canteen first. jessy and yile gave me my present. thanks!

then went to parade square. ou, sher, dok and ll they all shouted my name. then they were pointing to something huge infront of them. haha i was like -open eyes wide- gasp! my present? i think my whole class was looking at me. opps :X

haha then on the way to class everyone thought i moving house or what.

after recess they all asked me to open it so i did. and i was shocked to see a harry potter poster! limited edition some more. gasp!

then came mt. seumas and the guys help me carry it down then on the way they were singing the funeral song. haha crap. and yane and i were laughing all the way. mok was shocked to see it too.

okaay what a commotion the poster had caused.

after school thanked sher they all and gave them a hug. haha that biantai qin soo damned.. biantai. haha

and sher dok and sw kindly sent me home! :D thanks a billon! really couldnt imagine how i'll be carrying it home without your help.

ohoh! koped this from ou's gallery!




haha how scadalous!



tskkk. sher and qin's numerous scandals! haha!

so anw thanks jessy and yile for that thing although im no longer a kid. ou sher qin sw for the poster. sc for that thing. and the others for the wishes and all. not forgetting dok for the letter pad and bookmark! like i said i would love anything you give me even a toilet roll.

im happy FOR NOW. thank YOU for making my day.

at least there's something to keep me happy and not get reminded of how you conveniently forgot my birthday even though you saw me and the poster today.

sunday

which means tmr is a monday. haha like you dint know.

NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO TMR! actually i think everyone else too. and i forgot where i put my report book :X

homework not done (check)
bag not packed (check)
report book not found (check)

:D

my dads coming back tonight. and going again next week. ayy i dont wish to take over his position. flying sucks.

okaay thats a big change for the once-pilot-to-be mato. cos i hate air sickness :( sighs.

except me

ru guo ai shang ni shi cuo de,
wo ning yuan yi bei zi dou cuo

saturday

i deleted my tagboard.

ANNA NG YU FEN! how many times must i tel yall DONT CALL MY CHINESE NAME! haha this sentance has become my kou tou chan. haha!

btw its wanning not wan ning. GEDDIT? get it.

ayy sorry kengsern! really cnt make it tmr la!

im counting down can you see? weird. pple count down to olevels but i countdown to the first doom day. ay

er went taka with my mum and sis today. i really felt weird there. like i dont belong. as in i feel more at home in tm. haha just like rg pple feel more at home at orchard. lol

and i did something damned embarrassing today!

i went into kino cos i wanted to help dok look for her book (the best of roald dahl) but in the end she said nvm. then i spotted teen idol. i told my mum it was $26.20. and she heard $16.20. so she gave me $16 and i dint notice either.

so when me and my sis were queuing, i realised we were short of 10 bucks. so my sis went to get them. when she same back, i realised we were short of $0.20! just then the cashier said next please then i was like shucks. so i turned to the person behind me and gasp! an ang moh! so i used my super lousy and stammering english and told him erm excuse me, would you like to go first? then he said no no no, you go first. wahlao super paiseh. then the cashier was staring at me. then my face was so damned red alr so i ran put of the queue to get the $0.20. and i had to requeue :(

ohman super super embarrasing. bet that ang moh thought i was trying to jio him or sth. cos he's abt my age. argh!!

and the worst thing was, he was behind us in the taxi stand again! omg what crap.

urgh teen idol seems like nice but i cnt read it! i havent even finish my hw. and yet im STILL here. argh!!

so now im done with amath and math. tmr gonna ask weini physics stuff. and mon gonna copy bit of shena's geog. chemistry not planning to do.

means i still have:
eng summary 1
eng compo + summary 2
ss notes
geog deforestation ques

sighs.

sth i dont understand: why dont pple update their blogs when they keep bugging pple to update theirs? tsk tsk.

we're just not meant to be together.
i dont belong to your world.