no mood for elf ):

i suddenly felt that i'd quit elf.

1. because of gcc, i duno if i'd pon elf tmr or to leave gcc early. its like bu san bu si if i go for both. so might as well choose one only right.

2. i dont like the main comm. damn _______ (fill in the blank yourself) la. i duno how to say la, but i have a feeling like they dont like me. partially cos tim is my friend but i how can they do this right? i mean hj's also close with tim ma. not to mention gek and jenn too.

3. during meeting that time, i asked chuanhui and jianhui if its okay if i go for halfday tmr. and they not only nv answer me, they gave each other a smirk! wtf.

4. THEY BLOODY GO PUT ME IN LOGISTICS!! wtf! the shittiest sai kang of all!! just because im close with tim then give me sai kang also la??!?!? wahlao if jenn can be in admin and gek and hj can be in resource, why cant i!??! its not that i dont want to be under tim, but logistics!!! can you imagine me doing LOGISTICS?!?! i mean, i can drop the helmets on the floor, even if im only holding 3. and its not like they duno, ch and shidah saw me drop before la. so you want a careless sotong for the job? you've got it. just dont blame me if the participants die of equipment failure.

5. i detest the ants living in the shack and the storeroom! gross. and you want me to clean those places? in your nightmares.

6. im afraid of heights!! like im alr shivering on the half-pamper pole thing. and you still want me to climb all the way up to maintain the bloody stuffs? hell, told you i cnt be in logistics!!!

7. im the only one in logistics okay. i mean out of those elves whom i like la, like alan or kamir. like even cheng hwee's in resource! haha lucky him, can see his eyecanday :P now i have no one to talk to during trng la! freak.

8. if i remain in htm, i'd be unable to go for elf very often cos of tas. but if i change course, i'd be taking all 10 modules at one go, so all the more i wont be going for elf! urgh.

9. and so what if i stay all the way? i wont get promoted to sub comm or even main comm what, since the POWERFUL people dont like me. and even if im really promoted, i'd only be what quarter mistress. HELL, I ALR HATE LOGISTICS SOOO MUCH YOU STILL WANT ME TO BE IN CHARGE!!????

so whats the use of still staying in elf?

(and for once, im not random anymore!)

.

i guess this kinda backstabbing will never end.

urgh ):

and i thought that exams were the most stressful thing. turns out there are more to come.

and choosing courses to switch is one of them. not to mention waiting for the results. but before that there are the exam results too. and then my job interview results.

although im pretty sure i got the job at starbucks, im still keeping my fingers crossed :X but im still considering on 4.50/hr. hello, i gave that manager like tonnes of tips to improve their standards. haha all the more they should pay me more. i'll be what, barista-cum-part time consultant!

and then again, intHT's really useful eh. to a certain extent la. econs too (: orgbeh is common sense (i mean, the reinforcement theories? hell, we all know about punishment!). RHT NOT A DAMN THING.

and im alr like 150 bucks in the red, plus i have to buy cargo for gcc and elf on tue! and cargos aint cheap. i saw one at s&k, its like 50 bucks. urgh where's my pot of gold?

biotech? biomed? sa? and maybe a hint of chemeng. ahhhhh i duno. its like jae all over again. sort of.

and by the time i grad from nie, i'll be like 24. hell, how do those nie teachers look so young?!

arghhh decisions decisions again. just stab me now.

and i can alr see my future. serious, i can be a fortune teller. ask the 407 guys. im their shen gun (erm, pronounced like, a stick or baton?) ((:

anws back to my future(?), i'm gonna be a poor and old hag with no husband and no job and no money and i'd most prob go beg borrow or steal to yang xiao bai lian. if im lucky i'd die young of illness cos i have no money or i'd die of old age out of loneliness. if im unlucky, i'd live till 100 and be sleeping under the drain or overhead bridge or at the void deck.

and i feel so lonely now. not that kind. i mean, now that when i go online and wanna talk to the sa people, they're either all chioning pw or offline or busy in one way or another.

hj jb and mon said this before, they're all so used to missing first 3 mths that its like nth now. they dont even miss it now la, like it nv happened before. but although im so used to the missing and the sadness, i still miss and feel sad what. or maybe im not human.

anws meeting on fri. went out with elvoodoosa again (: im so glad that our friendship had alr bloomed so much, that money is like nothing (although we're not working yet) and we can just buy each other stuff when we see something that suits them. its a great improvement, considering that me and hj've only known jenn and gek for like, i duno, very short while.

but on theother hand, maybe we're only materialistic kinda friends. okay, decided! i shall bake them my na shou cookies soon ((: oh sheesh, i forgot that this was supposed to be a secret ):

alrights then, off to my dearest vcds (: i love love love love hk (: okay, singapore you dont have to be jealous, im patriotic too (: and you too england, dont forget im the prince of uk!

-scratches head-

this is the real 300th post (:

i received an anonymous msg just now, saying sth roughly like yo all, this is terence...check your email...happy working with you all... so i was thinking which terence is it. terence tay? cnt be cos he said working and i dont recall looking for jobs with him. then could it be elf's terence? then i read the msg again - hey all - elf's terence where got so hip one right. okay sorry im evil.

so i went to check my email and realised its gcc's terence. i got picked for some thingy la. but now i cnt go cos of bsg alp T.T

arghh bsg!! why?? why must your alp be on the 12th?!?! CRIES. now i cnt go for gcc. considering that they only wanted 20 pple and i got picked ): and i registered with gcc first then jianhui informed us about the alp la T.T

i wanna go gcc. i wanna go gcc. i wanna go gcc. i wanna go gcc. i wanna go gcc. i wanna go gcc. i wanna go gcc. i wanna go gcc. i wanna go gcc. i wanna go gcc. WAHHH.

yane is such a _____. she haven even open her bdae gift from last yr la! and to think that winnie and i spent hours choosing it for her. and its like almost 1 yr alr.

oh yea, like what 8days said, now that creative and apple'd "kiss and made up" i can be patriotic and an ipod lover at the same time ((:

im really sorry i cnt get rid of my randomness! argh. i swear i'll try and stop being so random. after all like what xiufen said, im the random queen.

and that steve irwin thing is so lame. poked by a stingray?!!? they're so yummy. anw he hunted crocs, not turtles! and he got killed by a stingray, not turtles! so whats up with all the turtles on msn.

anw since young i'd been thinking, someday, he'll die that way, like killed by animals in the "line of duty". oh and! since he got killed while doing underwater filming, did they get it on tape?!? hahaha. sorry but its not in my character to have empathy on animal abusers.

hanjun!!!!! dont friend you la! i wanna watch devil wears prada. and gucci. and dior gaucho. and hermes birkin ((: wahh i want T.T anyone with 12k to spare?

okay la i shall be a nice sis and let my sis use the lappy (:

byebye random.

okay i promise i will do away with the randomness before joelle starts complaining about again.

and im so bored!!

lalala. RANDOM.

i had a nightmare last night :X

i dreamt that * got admitted into sgh, same block + same ward as my mummy last time. and * had to stay for 2 months! omg so like my mummy. so sgh became my second home again. i think other than the doctors and nurses im most familiar with sgh alr. like someone whose whoever's terminally ill or sth. -choy- but seriously, i can walk sgh with my eyes closed after that 2 months in sec4.

but its kongbu to see sth happen to someone close to you. and in my dream, * had lukemia or sth. the one that required you to have bone marrow transplant. yea.

and i dont ever wanna see any savannahers ever again! argh so paiseh so paiseh. its worse than wardrobe malfunction ):

joelle choo is an evil pig. sorry that i cnt help the randomness okay.

okay i shall blog again later. the connection's not very good now.

anw, tan gek teng! what on earth do you mean by Sheena! I was here. On 21/8. At 12 23. Don't kill me! I couldn't resist! ????

300th post (: and randomness.

ive decided to make this a happy post.

1. ive long blogged a happy post.
2. but then again, i haven been blogging for a long time so all the more this should be a happy post.
3. exams are over!
4. its the start of hols!
5. no more freaking h02, or some ppl at least. im so sick of their faces. thank goodness for the changing of class system.
6. there's a teeny weeny bit of hope for me to change course.
7. i had an enjoyable teachers day celebration. sort of.
8. lastly, its the 300th post of my blog ((:

HAPPY 300TH POST (: or whatever you call it.

anw, after mugging like house-elves, (OH WAIT! i am an ELF -grins-) i managed to survive bcs int rht econs commskills ob and whatever shit. hahaha but to pass or not, that is the question. but im not going to think about it until the results are sent to my hp, which is anyday soon i think, since this is gon be a happy post (: and theres an A secured for me at least. i wont be miserable even if i failed the rest. not even my oh-so-lovely econs. you wanna beat me in econs, go ahead. im so sick of competing with you ever since ____. serious. i dont care since im gon change course alr. and since AS also has commskills (: so wont be a big diff right? AND, at least i won you in commskills. oh wait, and there you were boasting to me about your commskills too. okay we shall wait and see.

its only the, wait a min, 4th day of hols (i think) and i dead beat alr. my mummy's forcing me to pack and unpack my room. sound contradicting but, unpack as in unpack the BOXES from our shifting of house 7 or 8 mths ago. wow imagine the amt of junk i have. and everyone'd unpacked like within the 1st week! and edmund's more zai. within that day itself. i heard he unpacked like until 4 or 5 am. ROBOT BOY.

and ive been spelling c-o-n-t-r-I-d-i-c-t-i-n-g ever since i knew how to spell. and no one bothered to correct me ):

i like fir's chun lian's mv (: you should go watch sometime too. oh! and pink's who knew, although it makes no sense. but then again, all mvs dont make sense. oh the only one that did is helena i think. nono it doesnt. argh forget what i just said.

so after rht paper, mon and i went up to look for yc and hockkee. WTF I GOT A C FOR RHT. my first C in my entire poly life (okay excluding bcs) oh sheesh. fine im not gonna think about it. its alright if i just know what happened in my heart. i realised i dont have the need to keep repeating myself about the stupid class and their politicking. and i learnt the correct spelling from today's the suite life of zac and cody (:

i have like 34 items on my to-do-list. sighs im racing against time. and i shall ask my sis to teach me bio and chem and amath. or i can ask jenn. or dok. oh i forgot dok'd evaporated from earth.

explaination of the above comment. about the teaching part i mean. after the exasperating encounter with hockkee, i went to AS GO while waiting for mich. not tiny mich, evs mich. but come to think of it, both michs are as tiny (: back to topic. the helpful clark (pardon me, for i duno how to spell that god-forbid word. im no cody!) called up the biotech course manager and he said i can try writing a letter in to one-stop.

but still, im skeptical. i went over to one-stop and that irritating old hag told me to stop dreaming and not to be such an optimist. im guessing she's the pessimist herself and she's trying to influence me into her thinking T.T the wicked witch of one-stop centre.

which also explains my not-so-optimistic msn nick.

look at lingwei's evil nick! the devil eats prata. gek'll flip when she sees this. she's a natural. yea like a cheerleader (:

and im so thankful for the change class system. 3 cheers to that guy who implemented this! on the last day of school, some of them were like, oh my gosh we're so not gonna be in the same class anymore boo hoo hoo and hugging everyone. and i was like yes, yes! shoot me! i just kept looking away and simply refused to make eye contact or let them hug me. yes im poisonous so shoo! and its contagious.

then mich finished her exam and we went to evs. met up with meiyan peifang loi qin yuanlin huilin yane (thats not considered meeting since i see her almost every other day) jaz nans aisyah seumas shazira huda haseena. and all the teachers left were qin's sec2 form teacher (i forgot her name :X) donyeo rozi francisteo-skinnyass sekhar-noass haroldgoh. oh did i mention haroldgoh's the new CO teacher? OMG with sunzhaoliang. i hope he kicks szl out soon.

speaking of co, kitty's the new chairman. wth we groomed her since she's sec2 because we thought she'd be a nice person like our co clique is, who'd will never be like adeline that piece of shit. and in the end, after our batch left, she totally let out her tail. she started to boss yile chairman and jessy vicechair around! wth. and now she's totally arrogant. oh sheesh. hey wait, calm down. this is supposed to be a happy post (:

back to topic, i wanted to ask donyeo about the change of course and the teacher thing and many other stuff. but he ended up talking to seumas. AS ALWAYS. and i was being such an optimist thinking he'd talk to me. consolation price, though, rozi told me to sign up for relief teacher. and i got to talk alot to the rest of the people (: at least he didnt.

after school qin and i went to tm to meet jessy and yile our dear juniors (: fish and co! yummies. i rmbr my first fish and co (with friends) was with dok and the rest. argh heck. its the past now. and qin and i wanted to buy the sweets. haha so lame, but the sweets are so nice (: not to mention the passion fruit! and fish and chips. huijuan's new york's nice too (: duno why shuanghong dont like. oh man! i miss them so much T.T

and we talked for hours. we even went to the most ridiculous place of all, ntuc, just to walk around like aunties. then we kept people watching, like if we saw someone with lotsa presents or flowers, we'd say they're teachers. hahaha jessy started that! and we sat around in macs and saw lerling, cerena, yingyue. cerena's slimmed down! oh so has nans! good for them (: i also want T.T

yays i love just sitting around and talking, like with mich and lw at macs after pace. then again, it depends who's the other party. like i could never talk with ____. not even during lunch. i'd die.

then we saw tan huihong and belle quek. haha she's slimmer now. i rmbr we used to laugh at her figure ever since she joined gg. i guessed she quit gg and regained her figure (: not its my turn to balloon ): meiyan says ive gained weight T.T and my relatives too! CRIES. 5 kg. i cnt handle this ):

and ive been online for 3 hours -.- its really harmful for my eyes you know.

oh theres another reason for me to be happy too! my fridge's stocked up to its max (: but wait a min, that means another 10kg for me ):

and erm actually, 3 of my posts are drafts, so my 300th post aint counted right? haha but whatever. pre-celebration (:

i never knew dan's a shakespearean. at least in my memory, he's a geog student for all i can rmbr. he takes math, geog, econs and yes, maybe lit. okay that explains the where art thou thingy. but i guess he doesnt know the meaning of that sentance.

while we're on the subject of shakespear, i like romeo and juliet too! oh romeo, romeo. wherefore art thou, romeo? im so amazed by the meaning (: he's such a genius.

oh and did you know, romeo's first love aint juliet? its some other gal la, but then when romeo met juliet at the party, he just fell in love with her and forgot about his first love. how heartless right! what a bastard.

urgh, tell me i need to stock up more on my modesty or else pple'll start hating me.

and i should really stop randomness-ing in my titles since all my posts are so random.

i would kill to be in the shoes of yixiang. he has such a wonderful life. wonderful og, 2 wonderful cg, good results, nice family, chio gf, and a nice father like me (: aiyah i want his life so much ): everytime i see his dp i will go omg why is his life so happening? i dont ke wang to be like wenjun, everyday club/orchard road life. i hate clubbing in fact, only the dancing part i like. and orchard road too, daylight robbery, plus so far from home. i prefer bugis thank you very much. i mean, i want yx's happening as in, his cg goes sentosa, valentines, swimming, eat, blah blah. its like they do everything together! like jibin's cg ):

and the only clique i have now is elvoodoosa (: but at least i still have them (:

okay resolution for the hols:
1. sleep early and wake up early (fine, exception: today.)
2. go on a diet! (after my fridge's empty)
3. just compete my to-do-list of 34 or so items.

okay my eyes are really giving way now. gtg!

tata~ (sheesh now im acting cute -.- gross. i disgust myself)