stereotype, not.

damn. im suspecting rheumatism ): my knee is aching like shit now i just wanna hack it off ):

whats the point of religiously consuming glucosamine + vit c + vitasoy every morning when its not working?!?! dont tell me i deserved it. i know i know, ive started regretting it when i couldnt dance. darn me. darn knee.



i wanna say, im not a stereotyper. the following explains why:

while i was going back home from bayshore, i saw a bunch of VS guys. cute VS guys to be exact. sec 4, but they look like typical TP eyecandies omg. thats how mature they appear to be. which is a shocking thing.

and i swear my entire fortune that I AM NOT PAEDOPHILIC okay. i was noticing them because:
1) it wasnt the first time i saw them hanging ard bayshore.
2) they totally look like 18.
3) the only impressions i have of VS guys were derived from the only ppl i know from there, namely:
a. edmund, and
b. shaun from sajc

edmund is very studious, and to a small extent, nerd. but still, he's cute (minus the shyness) plus smart plus bespectacled (: my type! too bad he's been a lil brother since young. our families kinda grew up together, and ive been trying to matchmake him to fiona and meixuan since forever. and then seeing him being separated from his elder bro, i felt the need to take up the role of a jiejie, protect him, give him advice and support. yes, thats how cute he is that you just wanna protect him from the treacherous pool of desperados in jc, aka convent girls.

shaun is just.. weird. hahaha nerd and weird.

yup, that kinda sums up my impressions of VS guys. yes, call me a stereotyper then, but read on.


anw, back to those VS guys at bayshore. they boarded 31 too, and forgive me but i just kept staring at them! argh. the point is, they started talking abt knocking girls up when they go to jc. wth?!? kids these days.

but when we were reaching bedok int, they changed topics to school work. hahah and boy, they were worse than ppl from pst. they. are. freaking. competitive. yes, worse than HER or HER or HER. (wait a second, i just realised that competitive pst ppl are all GIRLS)

which proves my point abt stereotyping. yes i did have that perception, but it only proved me right (:



on a lighter note. im going sailing tmr! woohoo but im not done packing yet. omg im excited!



and, we're going to celebrate ying's bday next week! my god, fun awaits me! but first, money pls roll in (:

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insomnia again! god. help me ):

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off to sleep (:

jessica (:

happy birthday babe!

grad ceremony ):

graduation. i really dont feel like going. but jun's grad session is right after mine.


i think i really suck as a friend. she dint feel anything. anything at all. you know what, i think she doesnt care at all.

ah wells. we'll see. maybe the babes will change their mind abt going to the ceremony.

and you never know how much ive been ard.

its weird how we go from strangers to being friends to being more than friends to be being practically strangers again.

and it all happened so fast.

meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, ending our friendship was beyond my control.

friendship: a building contract you sign with laughter and break with tears.

i hate you

this is so sick.

in case you're wondering, i mean the world.

why on earth is it that ppl from schools like rj get in colleges like imperia harvard princeton and cambridge while ppl who chose to enter polytechnics (such as TEMASEK) can only settle for sim mdis or worse, UNI-LESS like me.

and we'll have to settle for "poly-pay" or so the uni grads call it. thanks a lot.

went to the cemetery ytd for a day tour. i mean it. 

0400 - mummy's grave with relatives from mummy's side

0800 - uncle big ben's grave

1600 - ah gong's grave with relatives from daddy's side

1700 - mummy's grave (again)

1800 - 2nd auntie's grave

and while paying respects to 2nd auntie, we saw sylvia and gary's family. hahahah they were going to my mum's grave. omg, my mum must be real full after everyone's offerings, 3 times you know!

anw, everyone started asking me about uni. sheesh i dont see johnny or bernard having that sorta problems. god knows johnny's already secured a place at nus engineering, while bernard'd probably applied for medicine. damn it. so im the useless one in the family.

its like jae all over again ): for so long, ive been considering fashion journalism but hearing from jun really makes me think twice. i know i might have mentioned this somewhere sometime, but i really dont wanna regret again. uni is 10000X more expensive. like chengy, i'll most probably study only once.

unless god's kind enough to grant me a rich husband, that is.

anw, im not really pinning my hopes on local uni. i'll most probably only get a rejection letter. mdis and sim are totally out on my list. dont get me wrong, gek and i'd seriously considered that. but after going to their open houses and talking to experts like weishan and les, yea. they're out.

my god.

and byebye aussie, because:

1. anything lower than a second upper class honours = laboratory officer at hsa, which means i can like go and freaking sign on now with my diploma. but oh, i'll be getting POLY PAY la.

2. to get anything higher than a second upper class honours = cap/gpa of 4.0 (upon 5.0) now you tell me how the hell is my retarded puny brain gonna make it?

3. this sucks. i cnt believe you actually said that. you think ps is enough to make up for my emotional scar? you were the person who gave me the hopes for entering uni. you gave me another choice. you made me persuade my dad who is now trying to sell the freaking apartment so that i can go and study. you told me we could stay together and be roomies. you made me miss the chance to enrol into other unis. you made me give up my job prospects because i thought we were going in june. 

im not angry, im just freaking hurt. 

when you asked me to go with you, did you mean it, or was it cos you just wanted someone to go with you, because she abandoned you? 

and now, you abandoned me.

i tried to forget that previous incident. it was hurtful, no doubt. it was so hurtful that i had to live on air literally for 2 months. it was so hurtful that i dint want to have anything to do with you. 

it was hurtful, but i did forget it. on the account of the projects we did together, and how it brought us closer. i swear you were my best friend in pst, even though all you treated me was only a good friend. i was fine with it, i dint care for more. good friend, so be it. i have tonnes of good friends, i dont mind being another. because i knew we were going to be roomies, and there would be loads of chances for us to become closer. a physical misunderstanding shdnt matter, right?

but you just had to go and do this! why, why did you have to abandon me?

i hate you. i really hate you. i hate you so much it disgusts me to even say your name. i hate you so much that i wanna delete your name off my phonebook and msn list a billion times.

fuck, how mean can you get? its like breaking up with someone over msn! without a proper lets break up or reason or even a proper media! verbally, in person, would be much preferred, in case you havent notice.

i get it. i understand now when you're having such karma with relationships. im not trying to curse you or anything. its just something you told me before. its because you're so mean with breakups that you're getting a taste of your own medicine. now that you did this to me, you'll get it.

to you: beware. she did this to me. likewise, she can do the same to you someday. 

jun where are you? i need you ):