then you'll see the saddest state my heart has ever been.

i miss everything. why didnt i treasure the past?

and im VERY VERY sick of shallow people. if you're going to start swooning abt some super chiobu (but shes some slore) then pls, spare my ears and go tell someone else. im not interested. and no its not cos im jealous cos im ugly. i just detest shallowness.

-mund- _failed... says:
haha if you friend treats you as a true friend
-mund- _failed... says:
they will go find out your birthday even if you tell them you dont know or forget

):

i finally mugged. a bit la. if you consider highlighting as mugging.

back to ECONS. or rather, sleep.

here without you.

):

htm orientation ): maybe it was cause of my headache at the start of the day.

i wasnt being paronoid over these few days. today proved my point. only syarila noticed i wasnt myself today.

anws, BIG THANKIES to tim, yvonne, soon poh, beilin, weiting and a small thanks to ah boon.

finally ordered my laptop. eventually, i still listened to bro. anws, thanks alot to bro, ou and monkey.

i was sitting in the showers just now and then i saw blood in the waters. like really horror movie like that. sheesh freak me out. luckily it was just my leg. i dint even realise i cut it somewhere ): and i dint even feel the pain. now i know why ppl wanna self-destruct. cos the physical pain is nothing compared to the emotional one.

i thought all this will be over in tp. guess its just another chapter, another continuation. its al like this isnt it? from rss to evs then sa and now tp. oh wells, my fate.

i walk alone.

sentosa ((:

met up with hanjun minxing and han at simei. mrt-ed to harbour front. haha i think the whole train was full of tp ppl ((:

then when we were at outram boarding the train to harbour front, mx gary and me couldnt get in the train on time )): ouch i got slammed by the door. but anw we saw safari.

brunch at hawker centre. found out everyone's eyecandies. hahah scandalous bunch of ppl!

finally, sentosa!! ever since the waiting for the bus, everyone started playing the dumb iq games like whats the next mrt station, black magic, what time is it, i know, open close.. like until the end of the day. haha cnt stop playing. then cos we were damn rowdy on the bus, soonpoh was like RP!! SHHHH!! cos he was wearing rp shirt. haha so jian. like what og16 did whenever we took nel. SR!! behave yourselves!!

volley-ed a while then captains' ball. argh stupid alvin dragged me into the sea!! )): haaha mx got dragged too!!

then raz mx jun gary reuben and i went siloso to canoe ((: raz and me, jun and reuben, mx and gary. fun fun! then we went to the shore and duno why reuben started collecting the shells and hermit crabs. then we exchanged partners, mx and raz, me and gary.

argh actually reuben had a motive for collecting the shells! he threw like half of them at me! urgh damn gross ): and they're gross cos they can move! and i kept having the feeling like they're gonna crawl up my shorts any moment. -shivers-

gary cmi la! still say wanna join what canoe polo. argh go home drink milk la! i was like the only one peddling and steering the canoe lor.

then we went back to palawan 7eleven to buy yummies! canoeing makes me hungry :P

volley again. and frisbee!! opps i deproved ): sorry!

haha volley was against these 4 antor gals. then we kept doing the a-n-t-o-r. icsh sia la! cheer. hahahaha fun! then went into the water to play the pass the frisbee game with the gls. wahh it was stupid. din was the yellow submarine!! haha lame.

finally went to bathe. this time raudah, farhan and din joined us the canoe clique. so now we're the big big clique of 9. haha then we walked all the way to siloso to bathe -.-

wow then from palawan to siloso to bathe, to taking the bus back to harbour front, to mrt to ps, to ljs to eat, the 9 of us were always together. haha i know this isnt appropriate cos its supposed to be spydra outing not clique outing. but anws, the rest had cliques too.

ta bao-ed food to og16's lao di fang. haha i suggested that place to biscut! ah and the 9 of us sat tgt again. dinesh, thomas and duke joined us this time. COOL NAME LA, DUKE.

while we were playing lotsa crappy games, like titutuuue, 007, handiplast, go back jump, SOME POLICEMEN CAME! cos its was like the whole of spydra there and maybe half of antor (and maybe mantis too) then they thought we were having illegal gathering! omg so kongbu :X luckily alvin went to tell them we were just having dinner.

but ayy it was the security guards who informed the police lor! wth.

anws, who plays stupid games at illegal gatherings??

wahh and farhan and the rest are sooo obsessed with the stupid hand game. the ok sign held below your waist -.-

mrt-ed back home with the other 8 of them minus din. argh and we continued with those stupid games on the mrt! especially 007, when we all go ARGH and titutuuue. what a sight. and they were doing the oi rp behave yourselves thing again!

its really freaky. jun and i have the same bag!! argh and somehow we think the same way too :X like the postcard thing.

HAHHAHAHA i know gary's eyecandy!! :P

outing was sooo fun!! i want more spydra outings!! i just hope that 1h02 will be as fun though.

alrights. school tmr so no more late nights!

whacha gonna do ah, when you see a bee ah, when you see a bee ah, SIAM!

SPYDRA!

foc`06

camp was alright. a bit disapponting though.

SPYDI ROCKS (: we're sooo bonded. but sighs our spydra wasnt as bonded though. now i really know the meaning of united we stand divided we fall ):

i like station games! our gls were damn enthu so we ended up enthu too (: and mass dance was cool!

sth happened in foc, the same thing that happened in saintaldeia. sth that i cant avoid since p1. ahaha guess its my fate. -shrugs-

biz orientation tmr alr ): oh no im so scared! im scared it'll end up like foc.

wahh my sis damn fake leh. i slept like less than 6 hours in total for the 2 days and when i came back of course i sleep until 4pm right. wahlao she still dare to shoot vulgarities at me! wtf and after that she can act like nothing happened and ask me to teach her amath! wth if it werent for me you think you can still survive your tuition and not get kicked out?!?

arghhh. enough whinning.

ah well all the best to me! (:

tmr: orientation.
fri: orientation + sara's concert! and jj lin's coming to sa for concert )): i sooo wanna go!
sat: og outing!
sun: shopping with yane?

i miss shena!! and i miss my og family ((: and my cg ppl!! woots cnt wait cnt wait ((:

i love you, stranger.

- Vacation

wahlao thanks to my dad's foul mouth. weini's really having probs with her bf liao. and i cant help )): sorry.

Vacation by Simple Plan
I know a girl who's obsessed with a guy
She talks for hours and still tomorrow
She'll call again and when he thinks that this could be the end,
She calls again

At six in the morning she waits at the door
He tells her to leave but still tomorrow she'll be there again
She won't let go

Can't you just go somewhere on vacation?
I could book your flight
And pack your bags
If you want
A one way ticket out of my life
Watching you fly away
I never liked you

She doesn't care if he trys to ignore
He runs away but still she follows
She'll try again
She likes to think she'll get him in the end
Yeah

Can't you just go somewhere on vacation?
I could book your flight
And pack your bags
If you want
A one way ticket out of my life
Watching you fly away
I never liked you
I never wanted you
I never liked you
I never wanted you, whoa

Can't you just go somewhere on vacation?
I could book your flight
And pack your bags
If you want
A one way ticket out of my life
Watching you fly away
I never liked you
I never wanted you
I never liked you
I'm not in love with you

my poor ankle )):

went sinseh today. wahhh pain like crap.

sinseh said my ankle is funny. as in i twisted it on the right so the ankle should hurt on the right side but mine was hurting on the left instead.

sinseh asked if im from sajc, cos i wore the venn tee there. haha then i just said yah. opps :X anw his daughter is in tpjc.

sinseh dint laugh at me when i said how i sprained my ankle cos got ppl who are worse than me. like sms and talk on phone on stairs too. and still got ppl run into drains -.- opps actually i got fall into drain before too. err but when i told this to qt she said my case was the stupidest )): thaaaanks.

and now i cant run ): ahh like that how to go camp?

one whole entry dedicated in loving memory to my beloved ankle ((:

oh nonono what cca to join in poly? tell me what kinda cca face do i have!

byebye sa )): hello tp.

i crashed sa today again! ((:

saw daniel in the morning and i think he saw me too :X then he got the what-are-you-doing-here kinda face. opps :P

I HATE LEO AND TSURA LA!! wth this morning laopo leo and tsura were walking down the stairs from gallery. then somehow i was telling laopo how materialistic sa is then somehow we got the the topic of her shoes being branded and all. then i missed a step and slided down 2 steps! )): and i sprained my ankle! CRIES. and all leo and tsura did was to laugh laugh laugh.

what on earth. im sooo maluated.

i seriously think XXX dont like me. like whenever XXX sees me, XXX will give me that buay song face. maybe XXX's scared i snatch XXX's friend )):

I DONT WANNA GO POLY!! I WILL SERIOUSLY MISS SA AND ALL MY FRIENDS. poly aint gonna be the same as sa. everyone's so bitchy! not like sa. only a handful. ahahha.

anw, im not gonna crash sa as and when i like alr. cos i dont wanna see some ppl and some ppl dont wanna see me. oh well, its not as if i wanna crash today la. I HAD TO GET CAMP THINGS FROM LAOPO LA!

now im feeling so contradicted. i hope poly will be infinity times better than sa. im gonna enjoy my whole 3 years in there and i dont wanna regret a single minute.

im having a love-hate relationship with sa now :/

AND MY ANKLE STILL HURTS LIKE CRAP. i cant walk straight la, damned.

og outing! cg outing! im like begging for outings la but no one seems to care. oh well, if no one cares why should i care too. if not for my camp i'll organise the outings lor. but seems like no one wants to organise then suan le lor. just let the og and cg DIE. anw we are not s02 and s08 what.

sheesh i must calm down. no sour grapes!!

*reminder to self: blog about oag privilege. pack camp stuffs. UNPACK THE BLOODY BOXES FROM THE SHIFTING OF HOUSE 3 MONTHS AGO! clear my stuffs under the coffee table AND on my floor AND on my table.

TEAM SAJC ROCKS!! ((:

SAJC SOCCER WON TJC 2-NIL~!!!

SA SA! THE BEST THE BEST!
SA THE BEST!
CHI KA LA KA PI AH PI AH
CHI KA LA KA PI AH PI AH
SWAH!!

WOOHOO~! GO TEAM SAJC!!

hope they won polo too! *crosses fingers*

*reminder to self: stop making stupid reminders when i dont keep to it!

geminis think alike (:

omg i cnt believe this! i just read jibin and minx's blogs and they both think the same way as i did. about my previous post. the thing about not being able to get a real close friend in jc. only cliques. haha geminis think alike (:

but anw, minx is considered luckier than me and jb. well as least she gets to stay in sa. and she's real close to sher.

og outing coming up. BUT WE HAVEN PLAN A SINGLE SHIT! damn. ice skating or sentosa?

i miss sa i miss sa i miss sa )):

*reminder to self: blog about oag privilege and PLAN THE BLOODY OG OUTING!

random.

evs sports day today. COUGARS FINALLY WON SECOND! yay hahaha eh but i think last yr also second. but anw, the champion is.. JARGUARS!! yay no longer leopards! ahah see la our batch gone then leopards also gone. haha. well done sec2s cougars! cos when their batch came in then we started winning (:

eh no wonder i suddenly had the urge to wear cougars shirt in the morning. haha see la i still have feelings for my school (:

life concert ytd. ee not high enough one. only during encore then high ): ayy waste my time. alot ppl went off halfway lor. sheesh.

alot pple came back for life concert ytd. then you see pple with all sorts of weird weird uniform walking ard. sheesh that kinda feeling, makes me wanna come back to sa ):

and just walking ard the school and you see familiar faces, with a hi! how's your day so far? or just simply a smile. crashing these 2 days had really made me realise how much i miss sa. i cnt believe how much i dreaded coming to school everyday at first. now, even if i want to wake up at 0530 and take a bloody 1 hour bus to school, i wont have the chance to do it anymore.

they say i wont be able to experience this kinda feelings in poly cos, even if you wanna make friends, its also difficult lor. in sa, even if you just sit down at any random study table, you'll be able to strike up any conversation. evidence: just by crashing, ive made 5 new friends. er actually, it should be 4. cos 1 of them was damn dao.

URGH I WANNA CRASH SOME MORE!!

i sorta regret my first 3 months. cos i dint manage to have a very very good friend. only got very good clique. oh well, thats enough alr. BUT THE THING THAT SADDENS ME THE MOST IS i duno why our og is so.. they can commit themselves so much to their cg but not to the og. if they would spend more time with us, just as much as they would with their cg, we would be much much more bonded.

*reminder: blog about oag privilege!

og sleepover. cg bbq. cg dinner.

yay im finally blogging.

og sleepover
met jb sh minx yx sam des sel at cityhall and we went marina to watch date movie. px and sher were late so they chionged up.

why cant we watch nc16 movie? do we look like we're 15? haha we're going on 17 alr leh!

anyways, date movie was damn gross. urgh and sh watched it twice?!? haha but actually is we force her one :X

throughout the movie everyone was like yucks, urgh, omg!, gross haha, erm at least our group lor. but the thing is, in the whole cinema, there were only our group and like 10 other pple :X

went kenny rogers for lunch after that! as usual, we took eons to decide where to go. but it was yumyum (: then sam left for bowling trng so the rest of us sat ard and continue making dan's pressie.

hj came to join us then went coffee bean. hah that woman wear until so funny, and she went sa to appeal. well, i told her not to give up and 1 day she'll be accepted back in sa. see! i was right.

anws back to the topic. hj jb and i shared the ex but yummy ice cream which everyone koped and the rest bought coffee which all of us koped too. then we played the "toothpick" puzzle thingos and sel guessed the most diff one correct! haha rj leh.

oh no stm. i cnt rmbr what happened next.

okay forward. then we went khatib to wait for sam. bought cake then went macs to rot a while more. we played huang shang game! sel is retarded la, always kena the ma tong! tsktsk rj leh! can play those iq games but when it comes to a simple huang shang game he cmi. ahhaha. so we made him do stupid dares like tell the person behind he has a nice laptop, wish the birthday girl (whom all of us ended up singing birthday song to), and the funniest: go up to the mac person and ask her is this kfc?

sam finally came! went up to his house and played i never a while before dan came. so we turned off the lights and surprisingly, managed to light up the candles in the commotion. stupid la we seriously cmi at surprises. totally neglected the fact that there are WINDOWS at the corridor :X but nevertheless, dan was touched by the "surprise"! (:

continued with i never while waiting for the pizza. YES! thanks to the clever us, we managed to dig out the mystery of the century! (well to us at least)

sher left after pizza ): minx and px went to sleep. so we played truth, dare or double dare. haha scandolous bunch of pple! shant elaborate more. the dares were funny too (: and luke is such a bastard! poor hj :P

i dont understand. the merlot is nice what! how come some of them say that it tastes like medicine ):

then sh ym sam des mahjonged through the night. wah, zai! dan duno disappeared to where then i watched tv. not nice one dont have cartoons ):

anw when minx woke up, ard 6, i went to sleep. and they finaly stopped mahjonging at 8 i think. but sh jb minx hj des bridged till 10 while px sam yx sel dan me continued sleeping :X

breakfast! minx and jb went off first ): so we went kopitiam for prawn noodle. wah super spicy xP then dan px and sel went off. so we went back sam's house and he and yx continued mahjonging with 2 other marists while des slept in sam's room. wah pro leh they 2! sleep like 3-4 hours only. then sh more zai. never sleep at all!

so hj sh and me used sam's com and blogsurfed. HAHA we watched horror movie :P and our reactions were the same as date movie one. hahaha :X evil leh.

finally finally, sh had to go so me hj des acccompanied her too. hj and des very nice. haha cos she's going for cg dinner and des's crashing and there's still like 2 hours. so they accompanied me to tamp then they take no 8 to tpy. des eat soft rice! hahaa he take money from hj. aiyoyo tsktsk.

anw, sleepover was super fun! oh no this reminds me! 10 more days to the next outing and we havent organise :X jiayou jiayou!

cg bbq
met wt maurice des jh at tpy then went ntuc to buy stuffs. wah we rushed so many places to look for the stupid fire starter but in the end ellen has it at her house.

after marinating the fishies at wt's house, chinhan came to fetch us. eee his car sticky sticky one
): and he claims its cos he polished the leather with the whatever leather polisher.

it took us a long time to find the bbq pit. ellen asked us to go straight after scouts headquarters but it was like at the junction so there were 2 ways "straight" and we duno which one she was refering to. then she said it was opp guangyang so we thought its guangyang SEC then we were like dont have what its hdb but actually its opp guangyang PRI. opps :X

anw, the "straight" was actually the other route, which we dint take ):

then ellen pl huajie kelly sara elaine sh dan jer wl terence th and his gf, kai qi came. haah actually kai qi is nice la. its cos that time in sch she nv hear th calling her thats why she like very dao.

we played angel and mortal while eating. opps im a lousy angel. my angel is also lousy la! i think i know who's my angel alr.

hmm over the past few days, i realised although pple always say looks arent everything, but without looks, you're nothing too.

cg dinner
rushed to ps after work. wah my feet almost killed me la. anw pl huajie kelly sara wt elaine des wh sh jer wl kanishk sy th terence maurice jh were alr there. swensens! my love (:

we made a big fuss over whether to wait for everyone's food to come before eating or not. then when terence's food finally came, we started eating but we forgot kelly's havent come! :P opps sorry ):

then we realised swensen's pple cnt stand us. at least the customers, cos we were making hell lot of noises. so we went to take neos! haha 17 ppl squeeing into 1 machine is madness. and the biggest machine is spoilt ): haha but it was real fun :D

wheeeee im done blogging!

wah. and you claim you support originality.