regret

the last day of my secondary school life. and i actually spent it by regretting.

i regretted listening to yane to spend 60 dumb bucks on the freaking costume.

i regretted wasting 20 bucks looking horrible in the damn thick make up.

but most of all i regretted not having enjoyed my 4 years in evs.

i know its not use lamenting over my pathetic life but then again its my blog and you cant stop me from doing it.

actually i wouldnt have felt that gan kai wan duan then if it werent for her. why did she have to talk to me? why did she have to talk to me? i went toilet and i almost cried but i told myself i cant. i promised not to cry over her again. but then, i realised how much i missed her. no matter how hard i try, no matter how much i lie. eventually, i still cant deny my feelings.

there. you won. totally. isnt that what both of yall wished for all along? to replace me? now you did it. congrats.

came back from malaysia. and i cant believe they're such hypocrites. and me too. argh and she still have the nerve to ask me to teach her p and c. wth. she'll rmbr this. but thank goodness the relatives were hospitable. and despite me hating malaysia so much, i felt quite sad when we were about to leave muar.

i promised to live a new life when i entered evs but guess i still couldnt escape from fate. i still suffered the same way i did in prisch. i swear im not going to let the same thing happen to me in jc/poly. never again. im gonna start afresh and forget the unhappiness.

but right now i dont even have the courage to go for 6/1 chalet. jialin joan and kelvin all asked me to go but i know i'll definately be left out there. like they have at least 1 person whos in the same sec school as them (except for zhong xian but i dont think he's even going in the first place) and im like so alone. maybe i should get back my money from kelvin and tell yize jialin chenkai im not going alr.

argh shit me. why am i such a weakling.

screwed ss.

wah pissed off by some pple. -roll eyes-

originality. ha! cant believe you did that. thought you were the closest to me and yet you did this. but wells, i cant choose. too bad for me i guess. and lucky for you.

paradise! yes 10 more days!! cool. but for now, gotta chiong esp geog and phy! crazy, 3 papers in a day?

ss was damn suck. maybe to me la. cos i dint study venice :X damn regret. but did sri lanka anw. although 2nd ques totally blank for me. just crapped ard. and i think i did badly for source based, lotsa false matching :X but heck la. ss was never my strongest subject. right now i just wanna score for my chem! show it to donyeo that i can do better than seumas! then maybe that'll change his mind?

then i'll have to start from now. off to geog!

environmental rocks but its damn heavy. shit. development or environment?