indigestion

urgh feeling utterly terrible now. thanks to the dinner we ate in such a hurry cos my tuition was at 7. and the food came at 6.30

thanks jaz for the princess diaries. gonna borrow the second book from her.

can you believe it? not a single 406 is online now! for the first time of my life! haha guess everyone's cramming for humans dt on mon now. -shrugs-

tuition just now was funny. weini was telling me abt her first bf. and somehow i can feel im connected to her. like the classic (i think only jaz watched it). yupp incredible. but the most incredible thing is, when i was telling her abt ahbu and daddy, she told me what she thought of daddy which was so damned true that i freaked out! so i was like eyes wide open until she shook me. oh my goodness.

ive decided. if i had a mental block during ss dt on mon, i shall take nandini's advice. sighs. but hope i dont have to.

oh yes anna, if you're reading this: you dont have to take geraldine so seriously. if you know her long enough, you'll know that its her habit. dont have to make a mountain out of of that molehill. relax okay? we're all used to it. if you care abt it too much, you'll regret it. seriously. believe us.

ohoh! good news for harry potter fans! DUMBLEDORE MIGHT NOT BE DEAD! take a look at this website! for those who havent read finish harry potter and the half blood prince, dont read. its a spoiler.

i cant believe you're actually not talking to me because of one damned lousy matter. you can refuse me but i cnt refuse you la? what kinda crap? so this is our friendship? dont tell me its actually so weak? i thought we were back to normal, but seems like the seperation hadnt done us any good. the only thing it did was to make us drift apart even more. guess you wont be going to the prom with me.

i totally agree man. see what the presence of guys can do to girls. well, some. sheesh. i cant wait for next year to come. cant stand this anymore.

on another note, it doesnt matter who starts the conversation to you. what matters is it started. but no. to me, it does. greatly. im never gonna start it for us again. its either you, or never.

shui shang piao!

project superstar! derrick sang zchen's song. haha so cute :)

ohoh! xu huan liang's official nickname: shui shang piao! lol cos last week during the revival round when he came out, he tripped over sth and almost fell, but luckily he balanced himself and broke into a run. then jeff wong said ni shui shang piao ah? qing ting dian shui! lol cos he looked as though he was running across the water surface like what they do in period dramas.

pe today. did sth fun at last. sort of like crocodile but the whole class was involved. first round i kept blocking jaz and siwei. then during the 2nd round change over. then jaz had revenge and she cospired with clement the leng lui and prevented me from going to the second stage! how evil can they get? lol.

hao la gtg le. eyelids drooping heavily. nights :)

reflections

oh yes. ytd went tm with winnie for brunch. haha im having brunch for like the whole week alr. ayy i miss recess. as in REAL recess. not just grab-a-bread-and-go kinda recess. sighs.

bought stickers for our bottle. haha now our bottles are du yi wu er! rocks.

heard maia's new song over the radio just now. nice. kinda like elva's music. oh speaking of elva long time never hear from her le. heard she's preparing on her new album. with wang lee hom. woohoo rocks.

went parkway parade just now. saw a wonderful super nice jacket from esprit! argh its 80 bucks. sighs. i want my green shorts too! but its out of stock everywhere.

singapore sale's gonna be over soon. and i havent bought a single thing. shit i feel sad! so wasted. sales everywhere. and most of the stuffs i see are like 1/2 the original price. sheesh. but without dok i dont feel like going shopping. damned.

oh pple! send me the rhd pics!

winnie showed me one. the one i took with her. shit i looked so sucky. ay anw i look sucky in anything. but i look esp ugly beside her! shes so cute. ayy.

bought a dream oracle for 16 bucks. i feel cheated :( should have bought the bigger version for 35 bucks. when its like twice the info. shucks.

urgh chem test on wed. and not a single topic done. shit i hate studying. and ive never liked it so will yall stop saying how come ah? i thought you very clever everytime get good grades means you like studying la. WAIT get this straight. i study for anything just to shut my parents up cos i dont want my teachers to meet them and they'll start nagging at me. geddit? get it.

im tired of trying to guess what you're thinking.
and i dont wanna continue either.

all of the memories so close to me just fade away

rhd celebration ytd. nth much. after recess went to 407. took lotsa pics the whole day. hmm everyone looked gorgeous :D

went dentist today. crap the dentist look okay with his mask on. but when he removed it, he was below average. lol.

ive finished harry potter and the half blood prince. crap. what kinda lousy ending was that? dumbledore? dead? hello? the greatest wizard of all time killed just by a simple avada kedavra from snivellus. asshole.

jaz said the prom's theme is classic. yah i hope. its better than pop star anw.

ah anw no one's info is totally correct until they announce it.

My red skirt is hitched up to my waist, though no higher. Below it the Commander is fucking. What he is fucking is the lower part of my body. I do not say making love, because this is not what he's doing. Copulating too would be inaccurate, because it would imply two people and only one is involved. Nor does rape cover it: nothing is going on here that I haven't signed up for. There wasn't a lot of choice but there was some, and this is what I chose.

this is from wen's lit text.....

for the first time, im ignoring my mum completely. its now 10pm and i havent taken my medicine. shes been bugging me since like 1/2 hr ago. and usually i'll just hmm orh yah la i know but today. nope. nth. figured out that maybe keeping silent and let her nag will be the best way to keep her mouth shut. ay her menopause is clashing with my pms. disasterous.

ive been wanting to do some shoutouts but ive been procastinating. so im determined to do one everyday. starting from now. cos i feel its time.

NG YU FEN ANNA: can tell you're handling alot of stress nowadays. please dont let your problems affect your passion for studying. where has the top-in-everything, super multi-tasker, cheerful, i-dont-give-a-damn-how-pple-look-at-me and hardworking koge gone to? nowadays you've been trying to hide your feelings so that no one knows but i guess it shows. maybe only winnie and i saw thru the pretense. dont give up okay my dear? i believe - at least, used to - that sincerity can change a person. just be determined. believe in her. and yourself. and of course, your prince charming, whom, im very sure, is definately not me. lol. im sure, you'll be able to solve all your problems. ying ren er jie. however, feel free to confide in your friends, im sure they'll all stand by you and offer their best advices. thats what friends are for.

163 days left to the end of my life in evs. and probably the end of other things i want to hold on to but have to let go of. sounds like alot? nah. the days will fly by and before you know it, you'll be wearing t-shirt and jeans to tampines everyday.

purple siao.

woosh. borrowed shena's costume! purple rocks! haha :)

photo taking today. cheng and i exchanged our pants/skirt. haha miss chin took a photo of us. then informal photo. shucks. cheng actually wanted to call me go infront. but in the end nv cos they hurrying him. then my pants were hidden! ay shucks. but luckily theres still mis chin's photo. haha :D

after school went shena's house with winnie, yuanlin and mich. then cos we wanted to help kaili borrow shena's bro's costume. but kaili nv on him hp. so we thought he was with anna they all playing vball. so winnie called seumas. no ans. hui. no ans. anna. no ans. meiyan. no ans. cheng. no ans. yq. no ans. dok. no ans.

FINALLY we got through him. then turned out he dint need it. then think they ended the vball game or what. suddenly everyone called winnie back. haha. one after another. lol then we were watching winnie ans all the calls. damned hilarious.

wahlao samuel really pissed me off. today during phy, yl asked me sth about power, time and energy. so i confirmed with anna before telling yl. then he so extra go whispered sth to anna. so i yelled at him. wah fuck man! why on earth is he so childish? then the whole class looked up cos the room was very quiet. damned him. spoil my day. bet he'll be suaning me again tmr.

nvm if he wants to be childish GO AHEAD! for everyone's info, - doesnt like childish pple. and she dont like pple who always quarrel with her brather too. so give it up. she's not gonna like you. asshole.

project superstar later. REMEMBER TO VOTE FOR DERRICK! :D

project superstar! :)

went project superstar ytd. ayy tang laoshi spoiler sia. she punished them cos they dint bring dong bin bei yuan by copying tonnes (okay maybe not tonnes) of worksheets after school. and in the end we were late for the show. grrr luckily not very. still managed to get some okay seats. okay only. could have gotten the best. meaning the seats meant for derrick's supporters. sheesh.

derrick was great! haha highest with 39 points. and weisong almost cried. lol thats what he said.

leon sucks. he got 38.5. but all of us cheered cos derrick still got higher then him!

but gotta admit that both of them really lotsa chemistry :D

sebas. ayy hopeless. 26. and weisong gave him 4 ONLY! then can hear the audience gasp.

poor hagen! 30. cos he sang zhang hui mei's song. big mistake! ayy wasted.

yifeng and jianfu are funny! but yifeng accidentally said ru guo zhi chi sebastian, liang wei JIAN, qing bo... then sebas' expression was.. haha shock? lol but in the end they re-recorded that part.

poor hagen/sebas' fans cried! ayy too bad yall arent derrick's cos you'll never cry. NONONO dont count your eggs until they hatch. ayy

yays gonna vote 20 times for derrick! and my pocket will burn! sighs.

ARGH! silver! :D she rocks too!

okaay enough of superstar fever.

so now, jaz, kaili, cheng, shena, winnie all watched windstruck. and all cried. haha nice movie. THANK ME FOR RECOMMENDING! lol no la sound so thick skin :P

woohooo! today rocks! 7 free periods excluding 1 ussr, 1 recess and 2 lunches! omg 5 periods of maths rozi dint come, 2 periods of eng sekhar dint come. only had chem and phy. lucky sub sci pple! no lessons at all!! wow envy!

thanks winnie for the bottle. im so officially broke now. its only the middle of the month yet my allowance's almost gone. sighs. hate being poor.

harry potter! and its not like i read slow or anything, my mum dont let me read! so i have to go a chapter a day (and yall should know me, i cheat! so its like 3 a day :P) and ou has alr finished 1/2 the book but i havent! sighs.

life is a spoiler. reveal all the impt stuffs. hate the newspaper. luckily i havent touched that part. thanks ou for the tip! :D

going shena's house tmr with winnie. to pick our costumes for racial harmony! ayy dont feel like wearing cos after that still got ec. plus, that person's also wearing. shit.

sighs. havent blogged like this for very long time. feels great to be happy again. but for how long?

-

im alone in this shit ass world. fuck. i shdnt go for superstar tmr with my lousy temper. spoil everybody's mood only. FIVE. five reasons for me to cry. i freaking hate you and you and you.

GET LOST!

I DONT CARE! I DONT GIVE A DAMN ANYMORE! STOP ASSUMING YOU KNOW ME! YOU TOTALLY DONT UNDERSTAND HOW IM FEELING RIGHT NOW SO JUST SHUT YOUR FAT ASS UP!

zuo you wei nan

how.. im so so scared. im so scared that F might get hurt if she knows the truth. how.. sonner or later she'll still find out and we cnt go on hiding the truth from her.. how, winnie? how!?!? i have to keep avoiding them now and i dont like it! i am so damned alone and i really hate it. damned. why must L do this to her?

havent been reading F's blog so i really dont know how to tell her. shit. maybe i shouldnt. maybe she should find out herself. maybe, she will then know L's real motive. but, she might not trust L anymore.

ohno! what should i do!?! shou xin shi rou shou bei ye shi rou! argh! who should i help?!

im pissed.

first, that idiot. wahlao who says you can join us for lunch? so thick skin never ask then join! fuck la treat us as what? substitutes?

next, damned me. i dozed off during the 2nd part of listening. wah ass. cos winnie and i actually wanted to go toilet but we arrive on time only so no extra time to go. shit and the music damned soothing, the passages damned diff and boring make me wanna sleep.

then, i waited outside 304 for them cos they went back 407 to get their bags. and i waited and waited and momo and sy all said they were gone to look for tang laoshi for the answers. FUCK LA! answers more impt than friend isit!? wahlao hate pple who bang seh and yall shd know right! unless, of course yall dont treat me as a friend.

finally, my mum called and asked me change my tuition schedule AGIAN! third time leh! freak. im not pissed cos of the cancelling but alr arranged until so xinku and i think weini getting quite fed up too.

GET A LIFE LA! THE ANSWERS ARENT TOTALLY CORRECT SO WHATS THE POINT OF RUSHING LIKE THERES NO TMR JUST TO MAKE YOURSELVES SO DAMNED BLOODY WORRIED FOR NTH!?! THERE IS NTH, REPEAT, NTH YOU CAN DO TO CHANGE THE ANS! ITS BEEN SUBMITTED NOW AND WHAT ELSE YOU WANT? GO ROB MOE TO GET THEM BACK?!?! UNLESS GOD TOOK PITY ON YOU AND DECIDED THAT TANG LAOSHI'S ANS WERE WRONG!

thank you. you didnt have to show me that. i knew it all along. just didnt wanna admit it. guess its about time to yeah. after all.. suan le. i dint want it to turn out this way either. guess sometimes you just cant control how things happen.

philo, FATE.

my foot lah.

on the way home just now, someone called me a DRATER. what in the world is a drater?! haha. rofl.

guess i should be happy for you. forcing myself to feel that way. you've got all you wanted, MORE than that actually. and you're not contented? guess i dont have anything more to say to you. i dont need all these lies. maybe two oh oh six should just hurry up and come and i wont be seeing you anymore. to think i use to believe i would be able to change you as long as i try hard enough, a miracle will happen. rubbish. i dont believe anymore. no more faith.

my dad is so cool!

back again. in a better mood now.

assembly was crap. the skit was about peranakans and indians. then the emcee asked whos peranakan, charles they all shouted sheena! sheena! -.- do i look like one? then i think shangyu, ken, clement and kx caught the peranakan fever too and shouted the same thing. -.-

the power of charles and gang. haha.

went for ec. not bad i guess. but was in the notokay mood again. and this time i know why. i thought things changed for the better, but maybe we need more time.

shit phototaking on wed. so not looking forward to it.

oh im having the dejavu feeling again! i hate it! its not nice when you know whats gonna happen next.

sth very coincidental. i was just talking about racial harmony and then racial harmony day is coming. haha.

these few days ive been reciting the line regardless of race, language or religion VERY LOUDLY during the pledge. and shena says i dont have to emphasise on it just cos i love that line.

yay i like irritating her! with my lullaby, pledge, SOS signal.. haha gonna miss it when we graduate. hope she doesnt find me irritating though.

everyone learn this:
... --- ... <--- SOS signal. so next time you know what to do when sth happens :P

shena and my dad taught us that. haha both of them were in the navy last time. but my dad quitted cos he said it was boring. then he joined the cnb. CENTRAL NARCOTICS BUREAU! woohoo rocks! :) and my dad has a gun which he carries it everywhere he goes! even when he's sleeping! my dad is so cool :))

too bad my mum forced him to quit :(

okay la enough of my dad. im so sick of him le.

anw i prefer my daddy to my dad anytime. my ahbu says he's not my daddy. and he says that too! dont want la i dont want be your dajie! sound so old! daughter nicer :)

im bad :))

FUCK OFF LA SAMUEL!

WAHLAO YOU FREAK CANT YOU SEE MY BUSY STATUS ON MSN? YOU THINK I PUT FOR FUN ISIT? KEEP BOTHERING ME! IF I NV REPLY MEANS IM REALLY BUSY BUT IF I DO MEANS I PUT FOR FUN! SINCE I TOLD YOU TO STOP BOTHERING ME YOU STILL DONT GET THE MEANING THEN YOU DESERVE THE DAMNED FUCKING SCOLDING YOU GOT FROM ME! AND NOT TO MENTION THAT STUPID BLOCK WHICH I SHOULD HAVE DONE LONG TIME AGO AND THEN NOW I WOULDNT BE BOTHERED BY YOU! YOU ASS BETTER GET OUT OF MY SIGHT TMR OR ELSE I'LL GIVE YOU A BLOODY HARD TIME! WATCH YOUR STEPS AND BETTER NOT STEP ON MY TOES!

wooooshhh. damned samuel. he deserved it. charles is better than him like a billion times.

wahalo 2nd time im scolding that word. sorry ym. but really couldnt control myself. all that stupid samuel's fault. wahlao damned pissed.

lost all the mood to blog. damned him. i'll really slap him if he does that again.

to charles if you're reading this: that ass doesnt have the password to my blog so pls zhuan gao him everything i said. word for word. thank you very much.

watch out i tell you.

dry your tears with love

wah FUCK! i just typed a super long entry and when i opened another window to go anna's blog the whole window just closed. wahlao damned it la. its not the first time alr. i dont know why every time i go anna's blog the windows will just all close by themselves. im never gonna go anna's blog ever again.

and its the first time i scolded that word since forever. this proves how pissed i am.

p32#R!#bfd#$%a14$^&%6tcbv

KHAIRIL INJURED HIS KNEE TODAY! lol we were having pe so miss chin asked the guys to demo frisbee to us. then khairil ran into daryl, his knee hit daryl's head, and both of them collasped onto the ground. in the end, khairil injured his knee but daryl dint injure his head. haha another tie tou. i seem to know so many tie tou.

bh and daryl then went to get the stretcher and carried him to general office while shena controlled the crowd. haha now we know how impt st john members are.

anna caused so much trouble by not coming to school today.

i had to sit with hui during chem.

and during phy, charles, daryl and samuel joined my group. and samuel caused so much trouble too. we were doing a ques on the suction cup thing. then no matter how hard michelle/daryl tried to explain, he still dint get it. so yuanlin and i tried teaching him using my method, but he still dont understand. not even when charles tried. so i got cheng to do it and he succeeded i think. COS HE HAD HELP FROM MY ICE CREAM! haha unfair.

ham ham asked me to pass sth to ahbu. ayy do i look like a postman?

charles and daryl really damned childish sia. they were blocking my way from 1st floor all the way to the lab. haha and don yeo scolded them! serves yall right :D

opps sorry qin if i offended you in anyway. but i know you're not those kinda pple i mentioned. cos i remembered seeing your blog, saying that we shdnt discriminate pple of diff religions. yah.

woohoo windstruck rocks. both jaz and KAILI cried when they watched! jaz maybe not much of a surprise, but KAILI!! haha! its now with cheng, and i hope he cries!

why why why? did you do it on purpose? whats happening? why is this happening?

loneliness, your silent whisper
fills a river of tears through the night
memory, you never let me cry
and you, you never said goodbye
sometimes our tears blinded the love
we lost our dreams along the way
but i never thought you'd treat your soul to the fates
never thought you'd leave me alone
time through the rain has set me free
sands of time will keep your memory
love ever lasting fades away
alive within your beatless heart
dry your tears with love
dry your tears with love

stand together. be united.

why are some pple just so selfish? aint she enough for you? why must you still act as though you're so popular with so many pple behind you? pls thats what you think but maybe you're not. maybe they dont want to do so but you forced them to. so what if you've gotten them all? you've only got their bodies, not their soul.

and i told you stop assuming you know me. you dont okay? just because you cant get into that course doesnt mean that i cant get into it either. so stop pretending its for my own good cos you know what you're thinking of. you just dont want me to get into that course because you're jealous!

tuition later. snores.

shit i owe so many teachers files. don yeo's chem file, mdm rozi's math file. woosh luckily im not one of the lucky 8 winnie tan picked and the luckily 10 foo picked. and thank goodness no eng file.

to everyone: ask yourself this. ARE YOU A SINGAPOREAN OR NOT? yall recite the pledge eveyday but do yall really understand the meaning of the pledge? REGARDLESS OF RACE, LANGUAGE OR RELIGION! why do some pple dont seem to understand this sentance then?

im not targetting this at anybody in particular or what but sometimes i hear pple ard me saying things that i comprehend as im christian, you're not. therefore im superior than you.

so what if you're christian? christians dont need to eat is it? christians dont need to sleep is it? so what? does it give you the right to critise other pple of other religions? relentlessly? yayaya i know you might not mean what you say to be the truth but my point is, does being a christian give you the right to be on top of the world? do you have to repeat your critisms again and again? for what? for fear that we do not hear you and have missed out your comments? thanks but not needed.

i know we cannot live in a world without discrimination. but dont critise until it hurts someone's self confidence. thats why i dont discrimate, at least the pple ard me. so please, make the pple ard you feel better by not discriminating.

the differences in races, languages and religions still exists among our pple, and if we dont clear this kinda thinking from our minds, we can never progress into a better society. these differences are what make us vulnerable. from internal conflicts to external wars. we learnt racial riots in history when we were sec 2, but did anybody ever thought why are there internal racial riots in our supposingly united country? if we cannot settle the differences among ourselves, then what abt attackers from other countries? seeing how vulnerable we can get, wont the terrorists benefit from this weakness?

we saw how london suffered from the bombs, we saw how america wept for the victims in the 911 incident. so many countries had been defeated by the terrorists, when is it going to be our turn? dont worry, sooner or later. they havent even attack us and right now, we are alr fighting among ourselves. the bad guys' gift for spreading discord and enemity is very great. we can fight it only by showing an equally strong bond of friendship and trust.

sometimes i wished we studied switzerland. cos the pple there are united. no discrimination. unlike ours. and maybe we could change to be like them. but i dont think that will ever happen.

stand together. be united.

rocks

wc was great! qi tiao was off but managed to control it. front pike. straight jump. backsomer. halfturn back, halfturn up. straddle jump! half turn face drop. straight jump. LAND! woohoo 8.30/9! :D

any title will do

ec was boring. okay since when was ec happening anw. so nvm.

shit. eng summary. and i have no idea what sekhar wants. both shena and i owed him cos we handed in rubbish. ayy he deserved it anw.

seems like ever since school started ive become bad. as in real bad. talk back to teachers, hand in rubbish on purpose, show teachers attitude.. argh heck la at least i dont play truant.

qa is so much easier than titration. for now. cos can refer to the notes :) later hafta memorise le, so ayy.

ooh 5 more days to harry potter!

today accompanied winnie to popular. and i was there whining about the vouchers for the pre-ordering of the book. then one of the cashier heard and told me i'd get it too. haha okay. she's nice! yay i feel blessed to meet her :D

i dont like how some pple fake that their unhappiness. pls like we cnt see thru you. maybe they cant, but i can. so stop faking it cos you dont know whats it really like to be unhappy. just go ask momo or ou.

damned me i cant stop eating. and im heavier than dok! oh no!

okaay give me another month, and i'll start working hard! wait for me dok!

i feel so cheated. i thought it was okay alr but maybe not. cos i saw what happened after that. and bet yall were shocked. if i hadnt went there id still dint know.

and thanks dok for the maggie today and the bread tmr :)

thanks to boon hoe for teaching me how to dl the songs too.

should i be happy? angry? sad? what should i be feeling? you tell me.

bad day.

omg. so damned dead and pissed.

first, geog. both yane and i were lying our heads on the tables. and she scolded me. WHY is she like forever picking on me and shena?

second, ss. stupid foo lectured us for like 1/2 a period. for not doing the essay and notes. hello? not i dont wanna do lor. i couldnt find my revision guide so cnt do! and the notes, might as well just tear the textbook, stapler and hand in to you right? since all of us are just copying straight from there. still give us a stupid deadline (6pm today when we have cross country). wahlao crazy sia.

third, chem. did 5 titrations! argh my hand dyed with methyl orange. and my ans was weird. anw hui and seu's also same as mine so forget it. don yeo was asking hui if she's more confident now after that practise. wth. i was beside her and why only ask her huh. and hui's results were a constant 8/8 whereas mine's forever 0/8. pls la. show favouritism also dont need so obvious right?

fouth, x-country. dok bluffed me but anw forgave her since she bothered to explained. poor gal was dragged to join the 16-legged race and she fell down halfway. then cos we started last, we were the last throughout everything. and the damned mr loh, hate him sia. irritating ass. keep asking us to run and whatever shit. wahlao he cycling of course easy la! damned sarcastic. liu laoshi was much better than him in every way. super pissed by him. but anw COUGARS won! haha after 4 yrs. yays i can leave the school in glory.

shucks im having the same prob as wx now. i cnt spell sarcastic. or is it sacarstic? or sarcarstic?

oh no wc save me! like what sher said, after the chi os i cant seem to speak proper eng now. im struggling everyday to communicate with shena. die die. and i said DON'T sekhar just suck? OMG im ashamed of my eng. luckily shena dint laugh but corrected me instead. shiiiitt.

shangyu hacked my blog! you ass! get lost!

some pple, they really deserve it. serves them right for being possesive. and i can easily name 4 of them now.

wah for the past week ive been like standing alot. my poor feet. gonna give it a nice massage soon. ytd's sekhar's lecture on ussr, today's foo's on essay/notes, 4.2 km x-country, another 4.2 km walk from bedok reservior to 201.

im so drained and wooooooossssshhhhhhh. dead.

anti-USSR motto: to rid the world of the evil clutches of melison see and the USSR
anti-USSR vision: to build an anti-USSR and anti-melison see world

anti-USSR society!

i shdnt be too happy. do not count your eggs until they hatch. so true.

went for health check. its stable! but still have to go back again cos my shoulder is er.. slightly unbalanced? lol thats what the doc said.

ayy so hafta go swim more. and my shoulder's becoming broader. sighs. but i cant seem to get tan! why oh why? :(

i like talking with winnie yuanlin and michelle! somehow we can talk alot. haha.

oh i founded the anti-USSR society today! haha very lame but i recruited many members! and jaz even suggested me bringing it further. like protesting infront of melison see's office. LOL but well at least i showed my displeasure in eng lesson by sighing very loudly when sekhar asked us to do ussr. haha!

why am i like the only one updating? nvm.

DOESNT MELISON SEE JUST SUCK TO THE CORE? ass. as if shes the principal! talk loads of crap at assembly and even had on-the-spot spotcheck. freaking ass. and the damned priscillia humphries asked me to take out my 2nd ear stud! as if shes our form teacher. damned her.

-pissed-

oh shangyu sucks too. -rolls eyes- gang up with samuel and bully me. -.-

now i know why i found more love/hui se kong jian so familiar alr! i ransacked my stack of cd and found countdown drama 2004. then i realised the song is in the cd! haha no wonder. cos i hear before.

project superstar is boring without derrick! :( ayyy. wah i hate that ass who sang the mei li ben nu ren. hate her voice. hate her face. but dok likes her. okaay thats the only time our opinions differ.

shall go. OFF.

damned me.

damn. where the hell is my ss guide book!? dont think i'll be able to do my ss essay without it.

ayyy whyieeeee? its like this everytime. im on the verge of giving up, and then this.

im worried. very worried. i have a feeling, maybe yuanlin and michelle is right. maybe im starting to gorge myself. its like my appetite has grown tremendously since school reopened. and its not like im having second puberty or what. oh shucks i dont wanna get fat! and the thing is, its not that bad if im bulimic or what, cos i'll be forcing myself to puke everything out and i wont get fat. but im not! thats why if i keep eating.. -shivers-

heard that the oral ytd was easy. yays good for yall! :)

argh tmr health check. and i detest the trip there. sighs.

ou is lame! his blog is 1 yr old so he said happy created day. HAHA! my blog is more than one year old le!

chem today. neglected as usual. no surprises. and i failed titration. as usual. damned me. its the last practise and yet i dint treasure it and do my best. damned me damned me damned me.

phy. need not me to say yall also can guess what was my mood la. and its just theory lesson. damned. imagine practical. it'll be like chem. shit.

i dont understand why pple just dont get the fact that standing outside the crowd gets you a higher chance of getting whatever ball. floorball is not like rugby or what. you dont have to rush all the way and squeeze your way thru just to get one damned pathetic ball.

sc took out his drum sticks during phy ec to show off today. then mr tsia saw and said wow DRUMSTICKS! LOL as in the chicken drumsticks -.-

OMG you have to believe in fate! ahbu lost her bracelet today and he found it! oh wow. it was all along infront of me and yet only he saw! then he was still abit blur blur and he dint know whose was it. so he asked me to keep. and the moment i saw it i was like OMG! its all too coincidental! its ahbu's bracelet! haha was so happy so i became matchmaker for the day! :)

dou yu is a lousy show. regret asking anna to buy cos waste her money. thanks wx for recommending anw. guess your taste is different from mine.

the only thing i like about douyu is the songs. shd have asked anna to buy the ost instead. ayy

oh and autumn in new york is lousy too. the worst movie ive ever seen. shdnt have wasted my time and borrowed it from nandini anw.

hrmphs.

if only we could be like this everyday.

lost

i feel lost. really lost my soul during sci lessons today.

chem. had totally nothing to say to hui. and lost interest in titration. well frankly speaking there wasnt any interest to begin with anw. maybe shd consider sitting along tmr. nono there's NO SPACE for me to sit alone. cos theres like only 10 benches and 21 of us.

phy. lost in my own world again. it was like a total change. cos a minitue ago, i was there laughing hard at shena's static hand before she left and the other i just totally shut off. but thanks chengyao for asking me if im okay or not before he left too. yah im fine thanks.

maybe i shd have dropped pure in the first place.

nandini lent me her vcd autumn in new york. fell alsleep halfway. sorry :X not cos it was boring la, i was tired.

missed tan pan zhuan jia ytd. hope my mum recorded it for me. ayy

dok's oral today. hope she did well *crosses fingers*

er. okay maybe there was an improvement. but still, i had to make the initiative.

its been only 1 week yet so many pple changed. its.. -shrugs- incredible?

and i believe in retribution. shena does too. cos we both witnessed it today.

at least, there's sth which is fair.

stop being judgemental!

damnit. why do pple ALWAYS assume they understand me when they dont at all! pls stop thinking im like this and that because you're wrong! if you really wanna know what im like, feel free to ask! just dont jump to conclusions! because you duno that i hate pple LABELING me! and dont compare me with other pple cos WE ARE ALL DIFFERENT PPLE! and if you think you know me, sorry you're wrong. cos even i duno myself.

sometimes i really wonder what the hell i am doing in this class. i dont feel a sense of belonging, AT ALL. i see pple from other classes blogging stuff like school was like shit today but thank goodness i still have my friends/tablemates to crap with, we had so much fun during physics/bio whatever today, i fell asleep but whowhowho woke me up and blahblahblah - and i think. will i ever blog about stuff like that? NO. because i dont even experience this kinda thing. and i dont think i ever will. i do not enjoy myself in class. i seem to be in a world of my own. i dont seem to be able to participate in anything at all. no one would even notice if i wasnt in school. i know we all have us, but im the only one who only has us. cos the rest all have both us and their friends from their classes. but i dont. i am alone. i have no friends without them. my class, to me, is just a class. pple who study in the same room everyday. FULLSTOP.\/\/hatever.

maybe i only have shena, who like me, are only tablemates cos she has geraldine. like i care anw.

you! stop assuming and trying to guess what and who im writing about. you just dont understand.

i know pple care, but when it comes at the wrong time and i dont need it, save it. it can never enter my ears.

IM SO SICK OF THIS DAMNED YEAR!

ren! just endure for another 6 months. but this 6 months seems like 6 years to me.

can i survive?

i waited too long.

ive waited and waited. its been 1 month and 3 days alr. how much longer do i have to wait?

i hate this. i hate this. i hate this.
i hate this. i hate this. i hate this.
i hate this. i hate this. i hate this.
i hate this. i hate this. i hate this.
i hate this. i hate this. i hate this.
i hate this. i hate this. i hate this.
i hate this. i hate this. i hate this.
i hate this. i hate this. i hate this.
i hate this. i hate this. i hate this.
i hate this. i hate this. i hate this.
i hate this. i hate this. i hate this.

count. 33 of them. the number of days ive waited.

i shouldnt.

anna has tix to project superstar. but ayy i cnt go cos of dt. another time ba :(

went to the furniture mall and man! im in love with the furnitures. haha.

drove past beach road and saw the st john carnival at st john head quaters. ayy actually shena asked me to go with her but in the end she has to go for tuition. wasted the ticket.

penny dai's voice is powerful. but i dont like. lol

tonnes of homework to do. and its only the first week. gees. imagine next week :X

maybe it was just a stupid mistake we both made.
maybe it was just a stupid misunderstanding.
maybe.. maybe you shouldnt have told me in the first place.

i shall try again 2 more days. if it still dint work, then forget it.

st john day!

opps :X clashed with ncc day today. haha

winnie tan came to our class in her uniform. then we greeted her good morning mdm. lol!

after school stayed back to watch their pop. and to wait for the gang. cos half of them having oral today. bad luck guys. the topic was really horrible. if it was me, i'd have freaked out and cried on the spot.

sher cried when she came out. poor girl, but its over alr la. i screwed up mine too what. dont worry. at most we'll all die together.

oh i wanna kill chunli and joyce. they were laughing like mad women when they came out. good for them lor.

opps. the pop was quite disasterous. a lot of mistakes. ayy. and i almost made them get scolding. cos they looked at me. and i smiled at them. then they smiled back. and almost ended up laughing. haha sorry!

but yay! they finally passed out! congrats to those not signing on anw. haha

so they went dinner today. at seoul garden. so good. i missed that day when we went. sighs.

hope she doesnt seduce my dad :(

went co with sw. when we reached there, wanyan's xuan broke. haha i arrived just in time to fix it for her.

taught xiu fen while sw taught the other 2 juniors. haha xiu fen is funny! she kept laughing when i taught her. ayy hope she practices more :D